Karya Non Islamic - 1. Mimpi

"Mana suami saya???"
Huh, berani-beraninya dia menyergah di khalayak ramai begini.
"Mana saya tahu ..."
"Dia tak balik malam tadi. Sophiee bilang dia ada dengan kamu"
Dia membentak. Sepertinya semua orang memerhati kami.
Malu saya menjadi bahagian dalam "drama" seperti ini.
"Ya, memang dia dengan saya malam tadi. Kami bincang sampai pukul 2 lebih. Lepas tu saya mengantuk, saya tidur. Saya tak tahu dia pergi mana.."
Dia diam. Di balik matanya ada kerisauan.
Apakah dia sedar, sebagaimana saya menyedari tentang dia, apa yang ada di balik mata saya? Kekalutan.
Setahu saya, malam tadi saya ngantuk, saya meringkuk baring atas sofa di beranda.
Masa bila saya masuk bilik?
Dan kehangatan malam tadi, apakah cuma mimpi? Atau benar-benar terjadi?
Lagu "Halo" berkumandang tiba-tiba.
"Hello"
"We need to talk .." Suara itu tegas.
"Your wife is looking for you ... shall I tell her you dah balik?"
"I nak jumpa you kat bilik." Semakin tegas
"Kita sambung perbincangan kita esok. Hari ni .. you spend your time with your wife, ok?"
Amat jelas kedengaran dia mendengus di sana.
Di sini, kelihatan wajah isterinya tersenyum. Kerisauannya hilang.
Saya yakin malam tadi bukan mimpi ... tapi bagaimana ia bisa terjadi?
Mengapa saya terlalu lalai menjaga diri??
Atau ... mungkinkah memang itu yang saya mahu??

Just An Option

Don't Let Someone become a Priority in Your Life When You are Just an Option in Theirs
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A dear fren sent me this tag.

I was just wondering .....
Since I am an option in everybody's lives
that means what ???

Friends & Motives - by Ali Yan (XCite Group)

Friends are like eating from a box of chocolates, with your eyes closed, never know what you'll get! Actually, stick with the box of chocolates! Seriously, friends come on all different levels of connecting, from the friend you say hi to, to the one that is bonded to you under all circumstances.

Its a lot about positioning friends either close or just as hello friends. Being too close can create expectations that may not be forthcoming.

Few are even their own best friend and will likely treat you no better than they treat themselves.

Value friends and value acquaintances, through discernment consider which friends are better as acquaintances and which acquaintances are better as friends.

Be your own best friend and always find solace in that as people come and go throughout life leaving memories of joy and sometimes, disappointment.

Always know that many have motives for friendship and not all motives are bad, but some will prove to amount to false friendships once the motive, conscious or unconscious, is fulfillled or was an illusion anyway.

Those who open their hearts with no motives but sincere friendship become vulnerable to what may amount to vulture friends who pick at what satisfies them until they have no more need from that friendship.

Fair weather friends are as common as leaves on a tree that eventually turn color and fall off. As one loves oneself more, attracting fair weather friends becomes minimized.

Close friends are treasures to be valued. Lovers and relatives are best

Ongoing friends, some become acquaintances or even strangers as does happen with friends in general.

Often friends are for a time and place. They may open doors to gifts in the moment and may pave the way to a very different future.

Divine friends are found in all the many qualities of love, be it compassion, sensitivity, and all heartfelt blessings.

Tentang Bulan - About Frenship

Bulan dan bintang
bersinar berkelipan
dan menerangi keindahan malam
tanpamu bulan malam kegelapan
tanpamu bintang hilanglah keindahan

Ini kisah tentang bulan
bulan bintang jadi kawan
begitulah persahabatan
yang cuba kami eratkan
moga berkekalan selamanya

Begitulah kami
hidup 5 sekawan
sesama berjanji
susah senang dirasa
di bawah sinaran cahaya bulan bintang
menjadi saksi janji kami semua .....

Dalam Hidup

Dalam hidup
tidak saya harap menjadi jutawan
atau menjadi manusia yang dipuja
maupun kehidupan yang tersangat sempurna

Dalam hidup
kita punya kerabat & sahabat
yang kita percayai ke akhir hayat
juga yang kita percayai kemudian hilang kepercayaan kita padanya
tidak kurang yang langsung tidak kita percayai sejak dari mula

Dalam hidup
saya tersanjung andai saya menjadi sahabat yg pertama
tidak mengapa kalau menjadi pilihan yang ketiga
Nauzubillah drp menjadi sahabat yang kedua

Dalam hidup
saya berharap menjadi manusia berguna
pada agama, bangsa dan negara

What "Periodic Element" Are You???

GOLD

You are true blue. You have the vibrant qualities of Helium but you are not superficial. Your qualities are real and very deep. You are loyal, trustworthy, ethical, all of the things a Boy Scout would be. You are of great value to those around you simply because you care and are there for them when they truly need help. Who can say something bad about you? Except those who are jealous..

Di mana dia "anak-anak" saya ???

Waktu saya sampai di sekolah untuk Kelas Tambahan / Bengkel UPSR, saya nampak para pelajar
sdg berkumpul & Cikgu J ambil kedatangan mereka.
Bila saya turun dari pejabat, pelajar-pelajar semua dah mula beredar.

Ok ... mana "anak-anak" saya ???
Err ... di mana dia "anak-anak" saya ??

J : "Kak ... yg datang cuma ni saja - 15 org ...
tak pe lah ... rezki Akak, boleh rehat .."

Huh ??? Saya tak datang utk berehat ...
GB suruh saya datang utk bantu para pelajar yg lemah iaitu :
ajar mereka untuk perbetulkan kesilapan & perbaiki kelemahan mereka.

Akhirnya, setelah berunding, saya ambil semua pelajar lelaki - 3 org je ... ahaks
malangnya pelajar-pelajar ini BUKAN pelajar yg lemah ...
Walaupun dari segi pelajar itu sendiri, memanglah bagus utk mereka ... tapi dari segi pengajaran - pembelajaran & persediaan saya, saya terasa amat kesal.

Inilah yg Cik gu Z suarakan dulu, " saya takut budak2 tak datang je .."

Hemm .. kalau macam ni ... biar Cik gu jelah yg belajar & ambik periksa
Budak-budak boleh TIDO kat rumah !!!

APA NAK JADI DGN ANAK BANGSA KU ??
Gggrrr !!!

Sembang-sembang Cuti sekolah

Aisyah merajuk sebab saya tak bagi dia pergi kedai sorang-sorang.

Bila Abahnya balik, saya pun beritahu,
"Anak Abah merajuk .. Ibu tak bagi dia pergi kedai sorang-sorang."
"Ehh ... tak boleh, tak boleh, tak boleh ... kang kena culik kang ..."
"Ha ... kan betul Ibu cakap ... mesti tak boleh !!!"

Siti Aisyah terus merajuk sampai tertido ...

Not That Type of lady

It may be flattering at this age to still be able to catch people's attention
BUT really ...
there is a BIG difference between
attraction & being COMPLETELY MIANG !!!
kang aku bagi miang buluh tu kang ....

If you're thinking Demi Moore & Ashton Kuscher .. think again
Khalina Osman & ... what's your name again ??? .... DON"T FIT !!!

Maaf aka Sorry ... My Apologies

I've been getting "HiHi" messages from strangers ( through my YM) &
I'm sorry for ignoring them.
The truth is I'm NOT "that" friendly ....
While I can chat comfortably with my fellow yahoo-group members, fellow bloggers,
eFrens who share the same interest/Cause with me, writers & poets,
it's actually NOT easy for me to chat with strangers outside that circle.

So when I get "Hihi" messages from strangers asking me to talk abt myself,
instead of going "gladly, TQ"
I'd go ... "Huh ... excuse me ???"
AND I'm not comfortable asking questions either .....
Sorry ....
My apologies for being cold ...

ALSO ... just because the frens I share my problems with are too busy to "be there" for me ...
it does NOT mean I can & will simply turn to another.
I'm NOT like that ....
It's NOT that easy for me to open up ...
The few frens I share my problems with will always remain those few ONLY
and if they're busy ... let them be busy ....
I wud rather keep my "story" to myself then turn to someone else ....
My apologies if this makes some people "angry"

If you think I'm cold ... selfish .... stubborn .. etc..etc.. etc... all the "what the heck things you've been calling me"
may be I am ....
BUT Allah swt knows me best & Allah swt knows why I am the way
I am ....

To my few frens ...
Thank you for your frenship
AND like my family, you are my life treasures.

Halo - Beyonce

Sayu ... Sedih

Bermula dengan rasa sayu
melawan perasaan itu
namun tidak jua ia pergi
malah semakin parah

Sayu bertukar sedih
airmata mula mengalir
dalam solat ... dalam sujud
mengadu pada Tuhan
memohon bantuan
moga-moga sedihku berlalu

Sedih bukan kerana terluka
bukan kerana kecewa
bukan sengsara atau merana
sedih cuma kerana dia

Mudah-mudahan selamat dan bahagia di sana

Doaku buat mu selalu .. dengan izin & restu Allah swt.

Di bawah lindungan Tuhan

Firasat aku mengatakan sesuatu
yang amat memilukan hati
meratap aku bersembunyi dalam "kelambu" illahi
sayu hati mengadu pada Yang Paling Mengerti
tabahkan hati, pasrah menerima ketentuan
namun, tiada tertahan jua airmata
bagai hujan turun membasahi bumi

Andai benar firasat ini ...
apakah maknanya tiada restu dariMU
atau mungkinkah batas kasih terlalu rapuh
apakah mengundang petaka jika disatukan
wajar dikurung dalam "naungan"
agar sayang tetap di bawah peliharaan
lindungan cinta kasih & sayang Tuhan

I miss you very much !!!

My .. whatever

There are so many things I want to write about
things on my mind ....

sebenarnya byk benda yg bermain dalam kepala
byk benda yg terfikir ...
ttg kematian, ttg kesihatan, ttg perasaan, ttg keimanan ....

a) Kematian : akhir-akhir ni asyik terkenangkan Arwah Kak Yam & Atok
Kak Yam yg selalu tegur : "tgk tu .. asyik tersenyum aje ..."
Atok yg selalu suka bila Ina balik kampung
Sekarang ni nenek pun mula menghargai bila Ina balik jenguk dia ... :-)

b) Kesihatan : knowing that i need to take care of my health & yet
I'm like ... : "i can't be bothered with this ..."
I know i will pay the price for this .....

c) Perasaan : my emotion - I'll get back to this

d) Keimanan - I must keep on trying to better but as
an ordinary person I think I'm ok spiritually

OK ... back to c) ... bagaimana harus aku katakan ??
Bukan tak happy dgn suami, anak-anak & famili serta para sahabat
HAPPY !!! BAHAGIA !!!
Tapi .. ada sesuatu yg mengikat "kebahagiaan" itu sehingga ia tersisa 2 /3
Yang 1/3 lagi akan saya perolehi mungkin di kemudian hari ......
dengan izin Allah swt, Amin.

Hati

Perasaan kasih dalam hati anugerah Allah swt ...
terbuka, tertutup pintu hati atas izin dari NYA
Yang tersirat dalam hati Allah swt paling mengetahui ...
biar berahsia bagaimana sekalipun pada manusia, tidak mungkin dapat
berahsia dari DIA

Maka aku mohon restu Allah swt pada setiap yang tersirat dalam hati
samada yg diketahui manusia maupun yang cuma diketahui oleh DIA
aku mohon dilindungi semoga hatiku tetap bersih & suci
ikhlas mengasihi demi PENCIPTA yg MAHA MEMAHAMI ...
segalanya insyaAllah .....

Ya Rabb, aku mohon ...
perkenankanlah.