My .. whatever

There are so many things I want to write about
things on my mind ....

sebenarnya byk benda yg bermain dalam kepala
byk benda yg terfikir ...
ttg kematian, ttg kesihatan, ttg perasaan, ttg keimanan ....

a) Kematian : akhir-akhir ni asyik terkenangkan Arwah Kak Yam & Atok
Kak Yam yg selalu tegur : "tgk tu .. asyik tersenyum aje ..."
Atok yg selalu suka bila Ina balik kampung
Sekarang ni nenek pun mula menghargai bila Ina balik jenguk dia ... :-)

b) Kesihatan : knowing that i need to take care of my health & yet
I'm like ... : "i can't be bothered with this ..."
I know i will pay the price for this .....

c) Perasaan : my emotion - I'll get back to this

d) Keimanan - I must keep on trying to better but as
an ordinary person I think I'm ok spiritually

OK ... back to c) ... bagaimana harus aku katakan ??
Bukan tak happy dgn suami, anak-anak & famili serta para sahabat
HAPPY !!! BAHAGIA !!!
Tapi .. ada sesuatu yg mengikat "kebahagiaan" itu sehingga ia tersisa 2 /3
Yang 1/3 lagi akan saya perolehi mungkin di kemudian hari ......
dengan izin Allah swt, Amin.