Maaf aka Sorry ... My Apologies

I've been getting "HiHi" messages from strangers ( through my YM) &
I'm sorry for ignoring them.
The truth is I'm NOT "that" friendly ....
While I can chat comfortably with my fellow yahoo-group members, fellow bloggers,
eFrens who share the same interest/Cause with me, writers & poets,
it's actually NOT easy for me to chat with strangers outside that circle.

So when I get "Hihi" messages from strangers asking me to talk abt myself,
instead of going "gladly, TQ"
I'd go ... "Huh ... excuse me ???"
AND I'm not comfortable asking questions either .....
Sorry ....
My apologies for being cold ...

ALSO ... just because the frens I share my problems with are too busy to "be there" for me ...
it does NOT mean I can & will simply turn to another.
I'm NOT like that ....
It's NOT that easy for me to open up ...
The few frens I share my problems with will always remain those few ONLY
and if they're busy ... let them be busy ....
I wud rather keep my "story" to myself then turn to someone else ....
My apologies if this makes some people "angry"

If you think I'm cold ... selfish .... stubborn .. etc..etc.. etc... all the "what the heck things you've been calling me"
may be I am ....
BUT Allah swt knows me best & Allah swt knows why I am the way
I am ....

To my few frens ...
Thank you for your frenship
AND like my family, you are my life treasures.