When someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them ... because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart !!! ... or when you open your mouth, for that matter !!! 

Wajah Kesayangan

Wajah yang riang
bergurau senda, berlawak jenaka
gelak ketawa berselang
ceria ... bahagia hidupnya

Wajah kesayangan ini
ku bina istana impian untuknya
istana seindah warna pelangi
dihubungi jambatan awan
putih dan suci

Wajah kesayanganku ini
hanya mahu diulit mimpi
dalam dakapan kasih sejati
tersadar .... wajah tua inilah yang dia cari
terjatuh .... pelukan hangat inilah yang dia nanti
bahagia dia .. bahagialah aku , pasti !!!

Kantungku Pecah

Telah lama aku simpan
kantung buatan sendiri
buat menadah hujan gerimis
untukku siram pohon selasih

Kelmarin gerimis menjadi lebat
sebentar kantungku sudah penuh
ku buat basuh lumpur di tangga
hilang segala kotor dan daki
rumah hatiku kembali berseri

Entah kenapa nasibku malang
mungkinkah aku yang cuai
sehingga kantungku pecah berderai
aku takut selasih ku mati
aku khuatir rumah hatiku tak 'kan berseri lagi

Akan ku buat kantung yang baru
walau berapa lama waktu yang perluku ambil
kerana aku memang memerlukannya ....

kesabaran, ketabahan, kecekalan ... atau mungkin saja kedegilan .... sungguh aku enggan mengalah !!!

Wishing On A Star

I'm wishing on a star
I'm wishing for my dreams come true
I'm wishing for a time I could sit and talk to you
just like we used to do

I'm wishing on the rainbow
I'm wishing on the wind that blows
I'm wishing for some news from you
or the breeze brings my news to you

I'm wishing on the moon
I'm wishing on the sun
as time passes by I will never forget
one of the jewels in my life is you

Bulan Bintang

Bintang gemerlapan
menghiasi langit malam
menjadi teman
setia pada sang bulan

Bulan
cahayanya bukan cahaya sendiri
bahkan dipinjam dari mentari
rupanya berubah mengikut musim
masih juga ada yang setia menemani
masih ada yang menghargai

Manusia
adakah teman sejati
bila rupanya berubah tidak lagi berseri
bila gemilang tidak lagi dimiliki
tidak punya harta , tidak punya nama, tidak punya kuasa
adakah teman masih lagi setia di sisi ???
adakah yang masih sudi menghargai ???

Putih Itu Menawan ???

As far as I can remember, in those days ... we used to say, "Hitam itu manis ..."
even all the heroes in the Mills And Boon Series are tall, dark and handsome.
And there is that famous Malay Song " Hitam manis .... hitam manis, yang hitam manis , pandang tak jemu , pandang tak jemu"
Of course we had our own version of it " Black sweet ... black sweet... oh black sweet, I see no fed-up, I see no fed-up "
Oh Well .... me & me gang ... just being us !!!
Though I must say I did not join them in their passion for the Mills & Boon love stories. I prefer Autobiographies. But being different did not matter, when it comes to singing, I'm still part of the gang.

Tapi sekarang ni sibuk dengan kempen "putih itu menawan" Iye ke putih itu menawan ???
Saya nak cerita pengalaman saya jadik orang putih ... eh! tak tak tak ... jadik orang berkulit putih
SAKIT !!!

i) zaman kanak-kanak (sebelum sekolah) selalu jadik mangsa Pak Long yg suka cubit
pipi saya .... sebab dia suka tengok pipi saya merah kesan kena cubit, lagi merah lagi bagus
Adoi !!!
ii) zaman sekolah ( dari sekolah rendah ke sekolah menengah ke universiti ) ada saje kawan yg suka mengusik ... saje suka tgk muka kite merah padam. "She's blushing .. she's blushing"
Ha ye le .... kurang asam punya kawan.
iii) dan ada juga member yg suka tgk kite berjemur tgh panas ... "Rosy cheek", katanya
Wei .... rosy mosy .... tahu tak pipi rosy tu sebenarnya perit dan sakit

Tapi sebab saya berkulit putih, saya jarang kena pukul. Pertama kali Abah tampar pipi saya,
(walaupun sebenarnya bukan saya yg salah) kesan lima jari tu ambik masa berjam-jam baru hilang. Sejak tu, Abah tak pernah tampar saya lagi ......
Dan juga waktu bergurau dgn Cik Abang, berdepek hinggap kat peha, berjam-jam jugak baru hilang kesannya.
" Sakit ke Na ..."
" Tak .. tak sakit ... Sedap ... "
Aduhai ... tanya pulak lagi. Tapi sejak tu ... tak berani dah nak main tampar-tampar

Sekarang ni ... usia dah meningkat, kulit dah tak seputih dulu
Itupun baru-baru ni , suami saya balik membawa khabar "Tadi baca kat ofis, krim pemutih kebanyakannya ada kesan sampingan ..."
" memang saya tak guna krim-krim gitu ....."
"Ye lah saya beritahu je ..."
Err... is he trying to tell me something or is he trying to tell me 'SOME-THING' ???
Hemm .......

Cinta Romi dan Juli

Sesaat bertentang mata
melangkah
berlalu pergi .......

Seminit terkenang kisah silam
saling mengagumi
tahu sama tahu .... dalam diam

Sejam berbicara dengan nenek
tanpa dia menyedari
menjadi jambatan antara dua hati

Saling menginsafi
betapa sukarnya dalam realiti
menyatukan cinta Romi dan Juli

Persengketaan antara keluarga Romi dan Juli masih hangat sehingga kini .....

Special dedication - By Yr Side (Sade)

You think I'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you're wrong
if only you could see into me

oh when you're cold
I'll be there
hold you tight to me

When you're on the outside baby
and you can`t get in
I will show you you're so much better than you know
when you're lost and you're alone and you can't get back again
I will find you darling and I will bring you home
and if you want to cry I am here to dry your eyes
and in no time you'll be fine

you think I'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you're wrong
if only you could see into me

oh when you're cold I'll be there
hold you tight to me
when you're low I'll be there by your side baby
oh when you're cold I'll be there
hold you tight to me
oh when you're low I'll be there by your side baby

Bersinarlah Mentari

Bersinarlah mentari
terangi hari-hari kami
agar kami dapat berusaha lagi
mencari rezeki , barang sesuap nasi
buat ibu ayah, anak-anak dan isteri

Bersinarlah mentari
terangi hati-hati kami
agar hidup kami kembali harmoni
gurau senda, gelak ketawa menghiasi
dan kami kutip kasih yang tersisa kembali .....

Bersinarlah mentari
terangi sanubari
agar kami bersemangat lagi
membina hidup dari kesan runtuhan gegaran bumi,
letupan berapi dan ombak besar Tsunami
sebagaimana burung-burung yang kembali berkicau kini
ceria dan pulih setelah menangisi
sianak disambar enggang, mati

Ceria

i) "Smile to The World No Matter What"
that is my motto

ii) Promised my littlest I will never talk about death again.
Actually I was talking about death becoz someone brought this up " If you die who will leave yr children to ??"
So I asked my kids, " Kalau ibu mati , awak nak tinggal dgn siapa???"
They started discussing with each other except Aisyah. She was being quiet & I thot she's too young to understand. When I put her to sleep that nite she said, " Ibu.. janji dgn Ichah Ibu tak kan cakap pasal mati lagi .." Huh?? Aduhai ......
"Ibu tanya je.... tak bermakna ibu nak mati(dying or want to die) "
"Ichah tak nak ibu mati......" Waa......
"Ok ..ok.... ibu janji ibu tak kan cakap pasal mati lagi ....."
And so its taboo topic, as far as Aisyah is concern. Smile...Smile & always Smile for Aisyah

iii) I took a Confidence Test by Tickle ... just for the fun of it. The result :-
You have high confidence but there are also times when you feel insecure or overwhelmed by stress... HeHeHe..... Ahaks Ahaks Ahaks...tersedak-sedak aku
Actually, I think my high confidence is due to my "I couldn't care less what u think of me" attitude. I mean I 've been told, either to my face or behind my back, some very disturbing
things people say about me ..... all of it were lies
Over the years I learn to not be bothered.
The most important thing is "Siapakah saya di sisi ALLAH swt" & ALLAH knows me inside out ... cannot even pretend

Apapun, saya janji akan ceria selalu ..............

Rich Girl

Hollaback Girl

Cinta Tak Diundang

Cinta tak diundang
mengetuk pintu hati
yang sekian lama terkunci
mekar bersemi .....

Cinta kau biarkan
tidak dibajai
tidak disirami
akhirnya layu, hilang seri, mati ......

Dan pintu hati terkunci kembali ...........

Cinta Ilusi

Cinta ilusi ??? Ini gara-gara janji deh ....
Membincangkan perihal cinta ilusi yg dimaksudkan Bro Unggas Rimba :-

i) cinta terhadap org yg tak pernah bertentang mata dgn kita .... maksudnya apa ye ??
cinta antara e-frens atau pen-pals ??? ..... saya tidak menolak kemungkinannya.
How that happens is as mysterious as cinta yg bertentang mata like yr heartbeat goes lintang pukang when you see him/her, in fact dengar bunyi tapak kaki pun dah cukup buat yr heartbeat lintang pukang.
Now how does that happen ???
Wallahu'alam
Err... tapi kalau bercinta dgn e-fren atau pen-fren, bila kala ye the heart goes lintang pukang ??? Bila terima mail lah agaknya kan...kan..kan ???
Yg parahnya bercinta dgn org yg tak pernah kita temui is that you could be in love with an illusion. Becoz yr penfren or e-fren may not be the same in person as he/she is in his/her mails ... so unless you can confirm that this penfren or e-fren is as good a person as he/she is in his/her mails then it becomes nothing else but illusions. So is it worth it ???

ii) cinta ilusi = cinta perasan ... yg ni boleh berlaku samada bertentang mata atau tidak.
Perasan org sukakan kita, sebenarnya org tu tak kisah pun kita hidup ke mati ..
Lebih dahsyat lagi kalau org yg kita perasan suka kat kita tu sebenarnya benci kat kita ....
Aduhai .... malangnya nasibmu !!!
iii) cinta ilusi = cinta dalam diam ... kiranya secret admirer la .....
Ni yg sesuai dgn lagu SO7 Pemuja Rahsia .....
Yg ni selalu berlaku dgn yg bertentang mata ..... tak tahulah samada ia boleh berlaku dgn org yg tak bertentang mata. Err... boleh kot ... huh???
Saya pernah terlibat dgn kes gini masa zaman sekolah dulu .... dgn member tuisyen.
Yg beratnya dia gi hantar surat ke alamat sekolah saya ... dah lah saya bersekolah di Sek Men Convent.... Ha engkau, tak pasal-pasal saya kena marah dgn Pengetua.
Akhirnya, sampai hari ni saya tak terima surat yg member tu kirim ... yg saya tahu ia adalah surat cinta sbb Pengetua tu dok membebel pasal cinta ... & I was like Ha ??? Duh ??? Apa ke benda la org tua ni dok merapu ???
Anyway.... my advice is : if you guys secretly like someone & you know that she's available
(Jangan kacau orang yg dah berpunya ha ....) do build enuff guts to at least give her the proper hints.... directly to her, please ......
kang tersilap aim kang...orang lain lak yg perasan
Proper hints ??? Hemm... well.... bagi bunga ke, chocolate ke, cake ke .... kad ke .... dedicate a poem ke ... err.. entah le. Tapi bab choc & cake tu , tgkla member kaki diet ke tak. Kalau kaki diet tak yah lah bagi choc or cakes... bagi diet pills....
Don't worry about the outcome...at least you've let her know. And most prob her true self will show after she gets the hint... whether she likes you / whether she thinks of u as just a fren or colleague. If she makes fun of you or turn the event into hot gossp of the year , then you know she's not worth it. At least I think so ... I mean it shows that she has no respect for you .. so is such person worth it ???

Anyway .... yg saya bincangkan tadi adalah cinta asli .. when you're genuninely in love like yr heart "flutter, flutter"
Kalau cinta yg tak genuine tu ... cinta yg ada muslihat, yg ada udang sebalik batu, yg ada kepentingan ....... tak cinta pun boleh kata cinta
Yang macam ni ..... hanya memporak-perandakan. Stay Out of it !!!

Solitude

In solitude
being one with all that surrounds me
the sounds of the nite
one beat
beating of my heart, my pulse
as I breathe in the air
the wind blowing in space
one ... just one

In solitude
humbled as I pray to YOU
there is no other but YOU
YOU who knows me best
YOU who knows my pain ......
YOU who is always there..... listening , watching
in YOU I have my faith, I put my trust

aku serahkan pada MU, Ya ALLAH .....

Uzlah

Sungguh aku merasakannya
bersatu dengan seluruh ciptaan YANG MAHA KUASA
bersatu denyut nadi dengan denyutan irama alam maya .........
bersatu roh dan jasad dalam pengabdian kepada DIA

Dan akhirnya jiwaku semakin tenang ..........
bertambah keyakinanku pada YANG ESA
menerima segala ujian dan apa yang ada
sehingga waktu yang ditentukanNYA tiba .........

My Apologies

Reproof : there is no one to reproof but ME. I declare & acknowledge it was MY mistake.
I made the mistake .... thus I will accept the punishments for MY mistakes.
Punish ME ... its nobody else's fault .. just MINE

Repent : regreting all that I have done wrong, remorseful in every sense of the word !!!

Rectify : I can't undo what I had done but I can try to NOT repeat my mistakes

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Saya telah lama tahu, saya pasti diuji tentang apa yg saya ungkapkan .........
lalu apabila ujian itu datang, saya hadapi dengan redha
Hasilnya .... tepat sekali apa yg telah saya ungkapkan ..... saya tidak menipu !!!
I did not lie !!!
Awal pagi tadi saya tersadar dan mengambil keputusan utk Solat Sunat.
Bermula dgn tahajud ... sebagai tanda syukur ALLAH swt menyadarkan saya ............
diikuti dgn Taubat ..... memohon ampun atas segala kesilapan yg telah saya buat
seterusnya Solat Hajat .......... memohon petunjuk dan jalan penyelesaian agar hidup
saya tidak diselubungi dosa.
Saya tidak tahu bila masa saya terlelap kerana dari sujud terakhir, saya menangis ..........
ALLAH yg Maha Mengetahui ......... semoga ALLAH membuka jalan penyelesaian.

My apologies .............. to all
This is the time I need to bertapa ..... be alone with ALLAH swt ...
because only HE understands ..... from early Friday morning, I'll be in my "shell"

I am a Dancer

Still thinking about the movie "Shall we Dance", the English Version, that I saw last weekend,
and seeing my girls get excited watching High School Musical, it brought back memories of yester years ............ My School Days
I joined Drama & Literature Club becoz someone insisted. And I thot, "Oh! what the heck ... I'll just get involved in the literature part...." Boy, was I wrong.
Our school had this thing about "SENI" that before school breaks each term , there would be a show on... either Dancing Competition or Drama Competition & of course "Speech day" aka Hari Penyampaian Hadiah. Oh! I know Speech Day is supposed to be Speech Day & not Prize Giving Day but over here, it means the same .... so Voila ... a show must be on !!!
Dancing Competition : 3 categories : Modern,Traditional & Taridra
Drama Competition : 2 categories : Bangsawan( based on Sastera Melayu) & New ( based on students' own script)
Being in THE club meant I had to be involved in every show (kalau tidak, kena denda).... so ...
ME .. the "I don't want to show my face" kind .... always picked the part/role where I would be most unnoticed aka inconspicuous( or so I thot), in Taridra & Bangsawan, where they need large numbers of dancers or actresses ....
Unfortunately ... I always got selected for the part that, although not the main character, brings out that DEERRRAMA in the show. Org kata apa ... klimaks ??? Be it Taridra, be it Bangsawan.
Ayo .... mati gue .... lepas tu kan ... sure malu nak tunjuk muka... gi menyorok.
Tapi bila announce "Taridra(or Bangsawan) dimenangi oleh pasukan ...."
HeHeHe... yup .. I'd be straining my ears.
Ya ... I was a dancer(and actress) then ..... (I was better at dancing than acting)
And once, during Training for Scouts, I had to dance a folk dance with a chinese guy (with a warning: NO pegang-pegang). But he was very nice, very respectful. He was very careful and polite while we dance ....
Today ... I dance alone ... in the security of my own 4 walls ... my own salsa and waltz
So Me partner ..... Shall I teach you to dance ??? How about tango tomorrow nite???... HeHeHe

Tonite tak boleh .. tonite nak baca Yasin.. SORRY... AHAKS !!!

Ikhlas

Ikhlas di dalam hati
ALLAH yang mengetahui
dengan naluri manusia menghidu ikhlas dalam pura-pura
antara benar atau berburuk sangka

Benarkah ikhlas mengukir senyuman?
ikhlas menyapa, mengucapkan salam ?
Ikhlas dalam hati
terzahirkah dalam amalan???

Ikhlas kata mereka, tiada dapat diperlihatkan
melainkan pada cahaya di anak mata .........
kerana mata gambaran hati
Lantas bila cahaya keikhlasan itu tidak kelihatan
salahkah aku mencurigai ???

Keliru - Teman tapi Mesra

Keliru
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Di lubuk hatiku tersimpan
Ada rasa bimbang yang enggan ku ceritakan
Ternyata baru ku sadari senangnya hatimu
Yang engkau simpan untukku

Aku cinta kepadamu
Aku rindu dipelukmu
Namun ku keliru
Telah membunuh
Cinta dia dan dirimu ..emmm....

Oh... Tuhan maafkan diriku
T'lah melangkah lugu memberi bimbang hatinya
Ku tahu engkau t'lah berdua
Tak mungkin ku rasa melepas kasih antara kita

Aku cinta kepadamu
Aku rindu dihatimu
Namun ku keliru telah membunuh cinta dia dan dirimu
Aku cinta kepadamu
aku rindu dipelukmu
Ingin ku akhiri yang t'lah terjadi
Lamunan membawamu kembali

Engkaupun keliru
Menilai arti cinta kita
Yang kau kira selamanya

Teman Tapi Mesra
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Aku punya teman t'man sepermainan
kemana ada dia selalu ada aku
Dia amat manis dan juga baik hati
dia slalu ada waktu untuk membantuku
Namun aku bingung
ketika dia bilang cinta
dan dia juga katakan
'tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

R:Cukuplah saja berteman denganku
janganlah kau meminta lebih
ku tak mungkin mencintaimu
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra

Aku memang suka pada dirimu
namun aku ada yang punya
lebih baik kita berteman
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra

Prinsip Hidup

Prinsip hidup saya mudah saja ...
i) berpegang pada nasihat Prof Hamka :
"Jadilah pohon yg rendang, dibaling org dgn batu, dibalas ia dgn buah"
walaupun ada kalanya saya mungkin marah sangat sehingga saya rasa cam nak cekik org tu ...
akhirnya saya akan let go jugak kemarahan saya ...........

ii) No matter how I feel, I will not let it effect my actions.
Thus like Bro Idham said b4 :-
"For someone whose heart is frozen, u r full of life ..."
Well, just becoz the heart is frozen , it does not mean I have to be "frozen"
Anyway, you freeze things so it could bertahan lama .......... kan kan kan .... AHAKS !!!
Just becoz you feel like bzzlluuttrrpp aka **** does not mean you have to treat everything
like bzzlluuttrrpp aka ****. As long as you're alive , I mean breathing , you got to live .. so LIVE !!!

iii) My life is not just about me
Whatever I do, I have to think of people around me ..... my family, my frens
For example, my involvement in political issues might effect my family & frens.
So when I signed the petition I did it with caution.
Still .... who knows if I'm blacklisted ??? As long as they don't touch/ threathen my family & frens, I am prepared to accept the consequences of my actions.
Just don't touch or threaten my family & frens !!!
Its in my blood. As much as I want PEACE to the world , I want JUSTICE too

No matter how depressed I may be, somewhere along the way, I'll get over it ....... coz
iv) ALWAYS TURN TO ALLAH swt and
v) "This life is too short to live it just for you !!!"

Serangan

SERANG !!!
Eh! .. tak tak tak ... thats not how it happened.
Adegan yg tidak ingin kita lihat :-
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"Hei ..betina ! "
Terkejut dgn teguran yg berbahasa teramat cantik, saya jawab, "Ye ... jantan"
"Ei .. awak jangan nak buat loyar buruk kat sini ye....."
"Kite dah tua memangla buruk ....."
"Tahu pun diri tu dah tua , yg gatal nak mengurat laki orang tu kenapa ???"
"Err... kak .. saya rasa kakak ni, salah orang... saya baru je duduk kat sini, saya tunggu anak saya ..."
Ha engkau ... kan dah termalu sendiri ......

Pesanan kepada Adik-adik, Kakak-kakak, Makcik-makcik dan Tokcik-tokcik:-
Kalau nak serang org, tengok-tengok la sikit, teropong lama-lama sikit biar pasti betul,
siasat dalam-dalam biar gerenti benar ......
Ini tidak ... pakai terjah je .......
Nasib baik darah Tun Fatimah kita tak naik ..... kalau naik tadi kan dah terjelepuk masuk longkang
Eh!... tak tak tak .. kita baik, kita tak brutal, orang je brutal dgn kita
Kita ikut nasihat Prof Hamka: "jadilah pohon yg rendang, dibaling org dgn batu, dibalas ia dgn buah ....."

Lepas tu kan ... bila dah termalu ..... guess what she did ???
apalagi lah kan ... kalau tidak aktiviti yg paling akrab ngan wanita ... Waa ......
Hemm.... kita kan , tak suka tgk orang menangis, I get really upset watching people cry
Ni yg tak best ni ..... tak tahu apa nak buat. Lagipun kita sedar diri ...
kita ni sensitip sangat-sangat. Silap haribulan, I can't beat them so I join them !!!
Dia nangis 1 liter , saya nangis berliter-liter ..... Waa ....

"Sorry ye Kak, saya mintak diri dulu .. lagipun anak saya dah keluar ....."
HeHeHe...bukan tak simpati .. cuma tak mahu melibatkan diri.....

Cinta ... Lagi

Cinta pada Yang Maha Esa
itu cinta hakiki
cinta pada ibubapa
itu cinta tanggungjawab
cinta pada anak-anak dan isteri/suami
itu anugerah dari ilahi ...
dan dgn restuNYA ia kekal ke akhir hayat

In The Mood Lyrics

Untuk org yg in the mood for luv :
Dealova - Once
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Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah
dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
karena hati telah letih

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati oh ..
bayangmu seakan-akan

CH : Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yang memanggil rinduku padamu oh...
kau seperti udara yg ku hela
kau selalu ada
hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang dan sepi

Untuk yang kecewa :
Salahkah Aku Terlalu Mencintaimu - Ratu
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Ku tatap dua bola matamu
tersirat apa yang 'kan terjadi
Kau ingin pergi dariku
meninggalkan semua kenangan
menutup lembaran cerita

Oh sayangku, aku tak mau
Ku tahu semua akan berakhir
Tapi ku tak rela lepaskanmu

Kau tanya mengapa
aku tak ingin pergi darimu
dan mulutku diam membisu

Salahkah bila diriku terlalu mencintaimu
Jangan tanyakan mengapa
karena aku tak tahu
Aku pun tak ingin bila kau pergi tinggalkan aku

Masihkah ada hasratmu 'tuk mencintaiku lagi
Apa yang harus aku lakukan
'tuk menarik perhatianmu lagi
Walau pun harus mengiba
Agar kau tetap di sini
Lihat aku duhai sayangku....

Untuk yang terlibat dalam cinta tiga segi :
Keliru - Ruth Sahanaya
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( tapi gak usah rindu dipeluk-peluk ya ... bahaya !!!)
Di lubuk hatiku tersimpan
Ada rasa bimbang yang enggan ku ceritakan
Ternyata baru ku sadari senangnya hatimu
Yang engkau simpan untukku

Aku cinta kepadamu
Aku rindu dipelukmu
Namun ku keliru
Telah membunuh
Cinta dia dan dirimu ..emmm....

Oh... Tuhan maafkan diriku
T'lah melangkah lugu memberi bimbang hatinya
Ku tahu engkau t'lah berdua
Tak mungkin ku rasa melepas kasih antara kita

Aku cinta kepadamu
Aku rindu dihatimu
Namun ku keliru telah membunuh
cinta dia dan dirimu
Aku cinta kepadamu
aku rindu dipelukmu
Ingin ku akhiri yang t'lah terjadi
Lamunan membawamu kembali

Engkaupun keliru
Menilai arti cinta kita
Yang kau kira selamanya

Untuk yang suka berteman tapi tak suka bercinta :
Teman Tapi Mesra - Ratu
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Aku punya teman
t'man sepermainan
kemana ada dia selalu ada aku

Dia memang manis
dan juga baik hati
dia slalu ada waktu untuk membantuku

Namun aku bingung
ketika dia bilang cinta
dan dia juga katakan'tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

R:Cukuplah saja berteman denganku
janganlah kau meminta lebih
ku tak mungkin mencintaimu
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra
Aku memang suka pada dirimu
namun aku ada yang punya
lebih baik kita berteman
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra
( kalaulah lagu ini ada waktu dolu-dolu, boleh saya nyanyikan buat teman saya
dan mungkin jugak, tak lah dia menghilang .... )

** Pesanan : Walau apapun cinta kita, tidak usah bersedih .. saya sentiasa ingat pd satu dialog dalam filem Akhir Sebuah Impian yg diucapkan oleh Arwah Benjamin S. , " ketawa Yanti, ketawa..."
Setiap kali menangis, seperti terdengar kata-kata itu lalu saya berhenti menangis ..
Pokoknya, dunia tidak pernah suka pada org yg menangis, jadi utk apa menangis ..... manusia hanya mahu berkongsi ketawa dgn kita , jadi ketawalah ... "ketawa Yanti, ketawa ..." (walau namamu bukan Yanti)
Tangisan itu disimpan utk kita alirkan waktu bersama TUHAN kerana ALLAH swt yg PALING TAHU !!!

Kalut

Kalut 1 : After the World Cup Final
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Waa .... "Thierry kalah" ...Waa
Huh? "Hey ... bukan Thierry soranglah ... France. France yg kalah"
Huh ??(Double Huh) .. "Nope ... Thierry kalah ... Who cares about France. I just want Thierry
to win."
Huh .... ??? (Triple Huh) .... Waa.... "Zidane dah bersara...." Waa ......
Duh ???
Ok I'm out of there !!!

Kalut 2 : Cellphone
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Baru saja membaca kisah masalah hp ... samada masalah talian, maupun masalah
panggilan yg menganggu.
Tapi ada satu lagi masalah yg khusus tentang hp .. masalah sms
Kalau dulu saya boleh terima kerana alasannya sedang ada promosi ekawan, echat dan sebagainya ..... tapi kini alasan apa pulak
Dan kalau sms itu diterima waktu siang hari mungkin juga saya jawab, "Boleh "
Tapi kerna sms itu diterima sekitar jam satu pagi ... wajar kan saya curiga ?
Siapa pulak yg nak berkenalan pukul 1.00/1.30/2.00 pagi .... ??
Ni mesti tak bukan tak lain, adik beradik atau sedara mara Mr D (Dracula)
Kalau perempuan pulak,Mrs V(Vampire) .. takpun yg dtg dari Asia, Mrs P(Pontianak)
Hish .... Ta .. kut ....
lalu sms " leh berkenalan .." saya balas dgn " Tak leh"
Ahaks ... jawab tetap jawab .... tapi Ta... kut !!!

Puisi Cinta .. sambung-sambung

Saya panggil puisi ini puisi cinta sambung-sambung sbb rangkap pertama tu, Sahabat baik saya, Ieda yg tulis ..... saya tukang sambung ..... HeHeHe

Andai ku jatuh cinta lagi
Apa kah aku perlu dipersalahkan ???
Andai ku merasa kecewa sekali lagi
Apa kah aku perlu kau persendakan ....... ???

Cinta yang mekar dalam hati
datang, tidakku sedari
tidak ku minta ia bersemi
telah cuba ku tolak dan ku nafi
sehingga tiadalah dapat menipu diriku lagi
lelah, mengalah ...........
namun aku jua yang kau persalah

Mengikut kata hati ???
lebih baik mengikut kata akal
kecewa .... aku tahu aku yang akan kecewa
perlukah kau persenda
sekeping hati yang penuh luka
kerana cinta yang tidak pernah ku minta ...........

White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, or tell you that.But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it, where's the sense in that?I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder or return to where we were I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrenderThere will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back againAnd I caused nothing but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me againAnd if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes senseI will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrenderThere will be no white flag above my doorI'm in love and always will be And when we meet which I'm sure we will All that was there will be there still I'll let it pass and hold my tongue And you will think that I've moved on.... I will go down with this shipAnd I won't put my hands up and surrenderThere will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be

Fly

Gara-gara mimpi roh terbang melayang .... dalam kepala asyik dapat ilham pasal terbang ...HeHeHe

Fly ... lets fly up high
to the sky .... to the sun
to where the universe begun

Let us soar .... soar in the air
feel free ....
as free as you can be

Fly like an eagle
soar like a hawk
High above the wind
This is where I can be free ............
Here is the place I can be me ..........

My soul reach out for YOU
my heart goes out to YOU
my love .... only for YOU ..............

Berubah Hati

Aduhai .... apakah kamu menyangka perkara berubah hati itu perkara yg mudah ???
Apakah semudah itu hati menjadi beku ??? semudah itu nak give up on a relationship ???
Dei !!! Dengor ni Baik-baik .........

" Bukan mudah menyusun tangga ke angkasa
bukan mudah menggapai mimpi jadi realiti .....
apapun jua ....
Menuju puncak .. gemilang cahaya "

HeHeHe ........... Ok Ok melalut lak ....

Well, actually its NOT THAT SIMPLE .........
No wife/fiancee/girlfren is going to give up on her hubby/fiance/boyfren
just becoz you're far away fr each other constantly & the telephone line went kaput everytime
you try to call. That only happen in Hollywood relationships.
It takes more than that to change or freeze a heart.
It does NOT happen when you have mutual understandings of one another when you are in that situation.

BUT .... even when the love is gone .. there is still CARE and RESPECT
After all those years you've gone thru together, its not easy to just give up and walk away
SO Hey .... just becoz it can happen, it does not mean its going to happen to yr wife/fiancee/girlfren ....
Just don't take each other forgranted.

Garuda

Aku memanggil garuda
datanglah bawa ku pergi
jauh dari sini ......
Aku menunggumu di sini
garuda yg pernah berjanji
akan membawa ku lari

Garuda membawa ku terbang
tinggi di awang-awang
bermimpikan hidup yang bahagia
penuh ceria, tawa dan gurau senda
sehingga saatku terjaga
kembali ke alam realiti

Garuda dari awang-awangan
bawa hatiku pergi ... jauh dari sini
Sungguh terasa jauh
jauh hati ku ...... sejauh jauhnya

Beku

Biarkan hati yang beku itu
usah diganggu
biarkan ia di situ
sampai waktu
ia kan cair sendiri

atau
yang beku kan retak
merekah
hancur berderai
biarkan berkecai ............

** tak pun kita campak kat Gunung Merapi, sure terpadam api Merapi tu kan .... **
Selamat Jogya
Anyone knows how its like in Yogya now ..... adakah sudah selamat ???
Adik angkat saya yg berada di sana ... diam membisu ... sms pun tidak dibalas... saya jadik risau ni :(

Frenship ... Closure

Closure of this frenship issue :-

Its just that .... I don't make frens easily and the few frens I have, I would definitely love to
keep.
I take my frenships seriously.....
Often I find myself in a situation where I'd be crying just becoz my fren is crying. We may be miles apart... but knowing that a fren/frens is/are sad makes me sad... so I end up crying just as hard.
And of course, I'd be sharing their joy too
I appreciate my frens til death, insyaALLAH

No ... we do not have to be together.
I've got a good fren, I rarely keep in touch with. But I know when she's thinking of me & she knows when I'm thinking of her.
We've got this bond that is hard to break.... almost telepathic...
and when we meet, often I could tell what she's thinking without her speaking out loud..
and often we end up laughing about it.
NOW .. I'm sharing a similar bond with my current bestfren. I'd IM her the answer
to her question before she even asked. Actually.. it kind of registered in my mind like
I'm hearing her asking me the question. AND yes ...we always end up laughing about it.

No ... I don't expect my frens to always be there.....
I'm not even asking 5 mins in a day (24 hrs) ... perhaps just 5 mins in a mth ???
Just to keep in touch
Becoz I DO NOT want a repeat of that year ..... when I found out my good fren was gone.
I was all excited to meet her during class reunion. I could, and still can, remember her husky voice, her laughter, her smile, her face.
But when I searched for her, someone told me, " Dia dah meninggal..." She died of cancer. And I didn't even see her when she was sick... in GH KL.
If she was in GH Ipoh, that wud have been an excuse, I mean I was in KL all those time she was sick & I didn't even know about it... so I tak jenguk dia langsung
WHY ??? All becoz HUBUNGAN TERPUTUS !!!

Please guys ... thats all I ask of you .... pliz keep in touch...sekali sekala pun tak apa
asal tidak terputus.
Tak pun ..... tulis offline msg.

Well...I've said what I've wanted to say.
I will not say them again ......
You can Believe me .. or you can say "Oh .. really ??? Bullshit !!!"
Terpulanglah ..........
Words is all I have to make you believe in me ...............
And all I CAN do is offer my frenship .....
I CANNOT AND NEVER WILL force you to be my fren ..........

*** Closed ****

Tajuk ???

Bermain sandiwara
menyusun kata pujangga :-
"Hidup bukan 'tuk mengejar cinta
melainkan cinta padaNYA
jiwa bukan 'tuk dipasung rindu
kecuali rindu padaMU"

Namun .... hanyut dek arus dunia
leka dek permainan kata
sehingga tersungkur rebah ke bumi
Insaf ... baru tersadar diri
Menyesal ... kembali mempertahankan
"Hidup ku tidak mengharap belas ikhsan
nasibku tidak mengemis simpati
Aku bukan pengalas kaki !!! "

Sayang ....
ke manakah mereka yang dulu kau jadikan teman ???
di manakah harta kebanggaan yang tinggi kau julang ???
Aku tidak pernah melayanmu bak pengalas kaki
aku tidak pernah mengaibkan kamu sebegini
Tidak mengapa ..... kembalilah ...
"kau tinggalkan aku fakir dan dhaif
aku terimamu kembali walau fakir dan dhaif"

Keyakinan pada YANG ESA .....
akhirnya kau kembali jua
menyambung seni tari sandiwara
menyusun kata pujangga
"Tugu cinta terbina
atas restu dariNYA"

SHREK's Donkey

Ok ..I'm stubborn as a donkey .....
but more like Shrek's donkey .....
coz like Shrek's donkey, I believe that "Frens don't turn their backs on frens !!!"

And so .... I'm still here ... still around

BUT ... unlike Shrek's donkey .... I have feelings of a human being
So if a fren says, "GO AWAY !!! Don't disturb me ..... "
Wouldn't you feel hurt if you're in my place ???

OK .. I'll go away .....
Wishing you all the best .....

AND YET ... whenever you need me ... just holla
I'll be there ..... insyaALLAH

Mulutku Masin !!!

My apologies ..............

Yup !!! Ada orang kata mulutku masin .........
HeHeHe
Minta maaf banyak-banyak pada semua peminat Brazil

Hooray ... Zidane and Thierry did it again !!!
Sorry Brazil ........
Oh Well .....

Actually ... Brazil will always be my fav team
BUT Thierry is my fav player ... HeHeHe

Hello to THE WORLD

Hello !
my greetings to the world
each morning as I wake,
breathing in the air , Thank You ..
Subhanallah .... each day
as I open my window looking at the sky
as I slide my door, seeing the birds flying by

Halo ...
the world greets me
in the beauty of its colours and sounds
HALO ..........
a reflection in the rays of light
caught by my sight
captured in my soul

In The News .... X vs Y

Whats in the news ???

Mahathir vs Abdullah
Israel vs Palestine
Bush vs Iraq ................

BRAZIL vs FRANCE !!! ... Yeah !!!
I want Brazil to win but I don't want Thierry Henry to lose .........
Now how is that going to happen ???

Erra vs Yusry
Mawi vs Ina ... Hey , sama lak nama ...
Tapikan...... yg tunang dia belum apa-apa lagi dah kontak media tu apahal ???
More ???
Hemm.....

Me vs .. ME!!!
Sedang berperang dgn diri sendiri ........... Yup
Petang tadi dengar lagu ni :
" Indahnya jika kita dapat bersama
hidup selalu gembira di dunia ini ....
Lagi indahnya jika kita dapat bersama
hidup dengan gembira di akhirat sana ......"

PEACE to the WORLD !!! and My life goes on .........