Rahsia

Yang terbaca tidak serupa yang dilihat
Yang terlihat tidak sama yang dipendam
Yang Maha Melihat maha mengetahui
apa yang bakal terjadi
segala yang nyata dan tersembunyi
sekalipun
rahsia yang terbenam di lubuk hati

New Year .. End of the Year

Sekarang ni dah 2 Muharram .. maknanya tahun baru Hijrah dah bermula : 1430H
Dalam masa yang sama tahun Masihi menuju ke arah penghujungnya.
Selamat tinggal TM 2008.
Apakah yg telah berlaku dlm hidup saya pada tahun 2008 ni???
Macam-macam ...
Yang paling terkesan bagi saya:-
i) perselisihan faham dgn sahabat baik (w/p cuma an eFren saya tetap menganggap dia sahabat baik) ... saya tidak mahu hal itu berulang lagi tapi perlukah sampai takut meluahkan pendapat??
Bukankah itu adat di dalam persahabatan?? Bukankah perbezaan pendapat mewarnai sebuah ukhuwah sehingga ia menjadi utuh dan unik kerana w/p pendapat berbeda, saya menerima sahabat saya seadanya. If only ... if only our frenship se"mesra" dulu ....
ii) kematian ... lepas seorang seorang saudara meninggal. Yang rapat ... bermula dgn anak buah, Syafiq, lepas tu Mak Long Gombak, kakak sulong emak saya dan lepas tu Long, abang ipar suami. Kecuali Mak Long, yang dua lagi tu memang tak disangka.
Arwah Mak Long memang dah lama sakit. Penyakit Long cuma dikesan dlm bln Ramadhan.
Dia meninggal dalam masa sebulan rawatan sedangkan doktor kata 7-8 bln. Tapi iyelah kan, doktor bukan Tuhan!!! Syafiq mmg meninggal mengejut sebab dia meninggal akibat kemalangan jln-raya. If I may choose, kalau Tuhan beri pilihlah, which I know is definitely impossible .... but I wud rather die macam Long whereby I know I'm dying & saya meninggal tanpa sempat menyusahkan org merawat saya terlantar sakit berbulan-bulan.
Sehari dua bolehlah org merawat, kalau dah berbulan, org mula mencaci maki.... kebanyakannya begitu so lebih baiklah "pergi" sebelum saya bedridden.
iii) my getaway dgn suami, walaupun cuma 2 hari satu malam, it was real special to me
iv) my children, Aisyah, Zahra & Shuib, ketiga-tiganya demam waktu periksa.
Bagi Zahra & Shuib, masing-masing periksa UPSR & PMR.
Tak sangka mereka berjaya mencapai apa yg mereka inginkan. Zahra 5A, Shuib 9A
Aisyah pun tak nak kalah ...."Ichah dapat semua A"
HeHeHe .... iyelah tu Syah
Hajar & Sulaiman je yg tak demam masa periksa ... Hajar dpt 5A (Peperiksaan Akhir Thn)
& Sulaiman peperiksaan Hafazan 20 juz.

Tahun Baru Hijrah ini apa yang saya inginkan ialah :-
i) semoga saya sihat & mendapat rezki yg halal,
agar saya dapat terus memberi sumbangan kpd MAKNA sehingga ke akhir hayat saya &
saya dapat pergi ke Makkah
ii) Semoga Allah swt terus memberi hidayah pada anak-anak, suami & saya agar kami berjaya di dunia & akhirat
DAN
iii) agar Allah swt merestui persahabatan saya.
Hanya Allah swt yg tahu apa yg bakal terjadi, apakah tahun 1430H & 2009TM akan memberi sesuatu yg bererti buat saya .. apakah sinar hidup saya semakin gemilang??? Allahualam
Walau apapun, biarlah hidup saya dalam keberkatanMU, Ya Allah. Lindungi & sayangilah saya ..... Amin.

It's Not Me

Ni entah yg ke berapa kali .......
The "down" feeling buat Ina rasa mungkin dah tiba masa Ina utk pergi ....
rupa-rupanya orang lain yg kena "panggil"

Entah kenapa juga masa mengemas utk balik hari tu .. Ina cenderung nak pilih tema hitam.
So semua baju anak-anak dan suami bertemakan warna hitam atau kelabu
Rupa-rupanya Aidil Adha kami disambut dgn majlis tahlil & berkabung.
Biras Sulong meninggal pada 2.25 am, 8 Nov 2008.
Tak sangka dia pergi begitu cepat sbb doktor kata 7 - 8 mths.
Walau bagaimana pun kami redha dgn pemergian dia sebab dia pergi dgn tenang .. kiranya penderitaan dia tidak lama.
Arwah yg bantu biaya persekolahan suami di London sebelum suami dapat biasiswa KP
justeru itu suami Ina mmg terhutang budi dgn dia.
Ina juga terhutang budi dgn Arwah sbb dia yg datang bersama rombongan meminang
sewaktu Ina dirisik (sekaligus bertunang) oleh keluarga suami.
Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat illahi.

Gara-gara kejadian ini Ina memasuki skim sumbangan derma ke Tabung MAKNA melalui Maybank.
Ina niatkan setiap kali mereka deduct utk derma itu, ia adalah di atas 4 nama :-
nama Ina & suami, nama Kak Ida ( my eldest sister) sbb Kak Ida yg bantu bukakan akaun simpanan Maybank dan nama sahabat yg paling ku ingat & hargai ( insyaAllah sekalipun kalau dia dah melupakan Ina) sbb dialah yg selalu mengalakkan Ina menderma (Well ... he didn't say it just to me ... he says to everyone in the group but it was him who gave me the idea ... walaupun sedikit kata dia)
Mudah-mudahan .... kami mendapat rahmat dariNYA
Amin.

Allah swt Knows

Allah swt knows that :-
there's something wrong with me lately
physically, emotionally & mentally
Physically - I don't feel THAT healthy
Emotionally - I'm not THAT happy
Mentally - I'm not focus. I couldn't concentrate on the work I'm doing
My mind keeps wandering off ......

Semangatku "hilang" lagi .....
hanya ALLAH swt yang tahu kenapa
pada DIA aku mengadu & menangis ....
Andainya sudah tiba masanya
izinkan aku pergi sebagai mukmin.
Dengan izinMU Ya Allah, Amin.

Semoga mereka mendapat pengganti yang lebih baik dariku.

Advices from Ash- Shaafi'ee

Ash-Shaafi’ee (rahimahullaah) said:
“Knowledge is that which benefits not that which is memorised”

Sincerity
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Ash-Shaafi’ee (rahimahullaah) said:
“If one of you were to strive with utmost striving to make all the people pleased with him then there is no way for him (i.e. he’ll never be able to do that).
So let the servant purify his actions which are between him and Allaah Ta’aala.”

And he also said,
“No-one knows Riyaa (showing-off, insincerity etc) except the sincere ones.”

Silence, Love and Honour
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Muraaqabah of the Tongue
Ash-Shaafi’ee (rahimahullaah) was asked regarding an issue (mas’alah).
It was said to him: “Will you not answer, may Allaah have mercy on you!
He said: “(No), Until I know the benefit and virtue in either my silence or in my answer.”

Love and Love
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Ash-Shaafi’ee (rahimahullaah) said:
“Whoever claims to have gathered in his heart the love of this world and the love of its Creator (Allaah), has indeed lied.”

Ash-Shaafi’ee (rahimahullaah) said:
“Whoever is not honoured by Taqwa, then there is no honour for him.”

Nobility & Salvation
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Beware of the love of people
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“Be silent in that era as it moves along
And regarding the mortals, flee from their monastery
And wash your hands from the occasion and its people
And be cautious of their love whereby you reach their goodness
I explored but did not find a companion
To befriend through life and befriend no-one but he
So I abandoned the lowest of them due to the excess of his evil
And I abandoned the loftiest of them due the shortage of his goodness.”

Oppressor of his own self
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Ash-Shaafi’ee (rahimahullaah) said:
“The one who oppresses himself the most is:
The one who humbles himself for one who does not honour him
And strives in the friendship of one who does not benefit him
And accepts praise from one who does not know him”ه

Companion of desires
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“If I saw a companion of his own desires even walk on water, I would not accept him.”

With the people of obedience
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“There is no-one except that he has a lover and a hater. So if that must be the case, then let a person be with the people of obedience to Allaah, ‘azza wa jall.”

Arts of ‘Ilm
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The virtues of the people of Hadeeth
Imaam Ash-Shaafi’ee (rahimahullaah) said:
“If I saw a man from the people of hadeeth, then it’s as if I saw a man from the Companions of the Prophet (sallallaahu `alayhi wa sallam). May Allaah reward them, they preserved for us the foundation so they have a right of virtue upon us.”

He said: “Upon you is (to accompany) the people of hadeeth for they are the most correct from amongst the people.”

Goodness is in five
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He (rahimahullaah) said:
Goodness is in 5 matters:
- Richness of the soul
- Resistance from harm
- Earning halaal
- Taqwa
- And trust in Allaah

Pleasure of the people
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Seeking the pleasure of people is an objective that can never be obtained
And there is no way to safety from the tongues of people
So upon you is to adhere to only that which benefits you.

Sincerity in Knowledge
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Whoever desires the Hereafter then upon him is sincerity in knowledge

The Art of knowledge
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Whoever learns Qur’aan, then his value becomes great
Whoever speaks in Fiqh (learns it), his capacity grows
Whoever writes ahadeeth, his evidence strengthens
Whoever examines into language, his nature softens
Whoever contemplates the reckoning, his opinion becomes sound
And whoever does not protect himself, his knowledge does not benefit him

The Slanderer
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Whoever slanders to you about others, will slander about you
And whoever reports to you, will soon report about you

My Treasured Frens

i) 'Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.' (Bukan kita je yg ada masalah)
ii) Be kind to the people you meet in your way 'up'. You will never know who you will meet on your way 'down' ... (Mungkin kita akan bertembung semula dengan mereka yang pernah kita sakiti)
iii)A sharp tongue can cut your own throat... (Even the fish in the deep ocean get caught becoz it opens it's mouth) Kata yang kesat lebih tajam dari mata pedang dan hati yang terluka sukar diubati. Manusia sering lupa kebaikan yang dibuat tapi tidak kata-kata yang kesat dan kesalahan/kejahatan/ penganiayaan. Sampai mati pun orang akan ingat
iv) Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important..... Orang yang beriman itu adalah orang yang apabila kita pandang, hati akan berasa tenang
v) The best vitamin for making friends..... B1. ... What you give is what you get.. so, perlakukan orang sebagaimana kita ingin diperlakukan.
vi) The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.
vii)The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge.... Dendam, Busuk Hati, Dengki hanya menambahkan beban/ sarat di hati yang digalas dalam perjalanan hidup.
viii) One thing you can give and still keep is your word.
ix) You lie the loudest when you lie to yourself.
x) If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished. The greatest mistake one can make is to fear that one will make one thus nothing gets off to a start. Remember, Nothing venture, Nothing gain
xi) One thing you can't recycle is wasted time. Remember sumpah Tuhan dengan masa seperti di dalam Suratul 'Asr
xii) Ideas won't work unless 'you' do. Kata Imam Ghazali : Ilmu tanpa amal adalah sia-sia. Amal tanpa ilmu adalah orang gila.
xiii) Your mind is like a parachute....it functions only when open. Kita tidak tahu serba serbi. Kita hanya akan dapat menambah ilmu dengan berfikiran terbuka. Kita tak selalunya benar dan orang lain tak semestinya salah
xiv) Jangan takut pada gelapnya malam (musibah dan ujian Tuhan)... kerana hanaya di sebelah malam kita dapat menyaksikan keindahan sinar bintang dan bulan yang memancar
xv) The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what you might have been.

xvi) Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. THEY R NOT WORTH UR THOUGHT. Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. We cannot change people, but we can change ourselves.

xvii) Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.
Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late. I don't want to let that happen

To all my treasured friends, you have 'light' me up & touched my life one way or another. For that , I thank you....

I promise I will not bore you or wear you down anymore !!!

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PEACE

I NEVER like talking about things that I cannot do anything about
I prefer talking about things I can act upon ....

While we can't do anything about peace in Palestine / in Sudan /in Congo
& everywhere else in this world,
there are some things we CAN act on like sign the petition, or the letter calling for
peace or for leaders to take action like the ones AVAAZ & Amnesty International
had been doing.
If you have more, you can even chip in on a much needed donation.

While I can't do anything about corruption, I CAN do my part
by making the official calls /complaints, rather than complain behind people's back.
Of course while they ( the person I call / complain to) promise to take action, I
really can't do anything much about the delays.
I mean like for example, someone's sijil pengesahan taraf took a round trip around Malaysia
before it reached the final destination.
How else do you explain the one month delay after being told that it's ready.
Hemm .... I MUST do more here.

While I can't do anything about weird practises by so called ulamaks, I CAN
educate my children, my family & myself to be aware of such wrong doings & NOT make
the mistake of believing / trusting/ having faith in such ulamaks.
Most importantly my children who are going to make the next generation must be able to
recognise such wrongdoers who claim themselves to be ulamaks & must be able to
either stop such wrongful practises by hand or simply stop them from spreading by word of mouth; amar maaruf nahi mungkar.

How we project ourselves is the BEST method of spreading the true Islam so I would start by ME ... I am a muslim trying my best to be a mukmin :-
i) The best among mukmins are the ones who are well behaved
ii) who maintains the ties of kith and kinship
iii) who remains istiqamah in any religious duty even if it's the simplest.

I have faith in Allah swt. & only HE can guide me, insyaALLAH.
Cukuplah Allah bagiku .... Amin.