Semalam

Malam tadi .. entah kenapa terasa lapar sangat ...
Ni apahal pulak lapar sgt ni ....
Hemm .. dah kemudian baru teringat ... saya tak makan sejak tengah hari.
Sebab :-
Balik dari membeli barang dapur, suami mengadu sakit.
Sampai je kat rumah dia terus baring ....
Jadi selepas meletakkan barang-barang yg dibeli tu kat dapur, saya jenguk dia & urus keperluan dia.
Lepas Maghrib saya solat hajat ... kepada Dia kita mengadu, kepada Dia
kita memohon pertolongan.
Alhamdulillah doa saya dimakbulkan ... suami kata rasa sakit itu hilang

Pagi tadi, balik dari Solat Subuh di masjid, dia mengadu sakit lagi
lalu baring .........
Saya peluk dia sambil berdoa lagi ....
Sekali lagi Allah swt memakbulkan doa saya.
Alhamdulillah.. syukur sangat-sangat
Sesungguhnya Allah swt memang memakbulkan doa yg dipohon dari hati.

Esok, dia akan menjalani medical check-up di Kuantan
Mudah-mudahan tak ada apa-apa yg serius.

Walk Away

Watching this video always make me laugh ....
So I'm watching this again .... for the laughter!!!


Ha Ha ha .....

Just Walk away .....

Go ahead and walk away .....
I am still laughing ..ha ...ha .. ha

Today

Pagi tadi pergi tandatangan report card Hajar
Walaupun kurang cemerlang, tapi cik gu kata dia seorang pelajar yang ceria & sopan
Alhamdulillah. Itu sudah cukup mengembirakan saya.
Syukur pada Allah swt.
Lepas sign report card Hajar, saya jadi wakil bagi ibu kawannya, Husna.
Waktu saya ajak Husna ke kelas adiknya, saya capai tangan dia & kami beredar sambil berpegangan.
Rupanya dia anak sulung yang manja.
I wonder if she does that with her mom?
Tapi dia memang anak yang baik. Mudah-mudahan dia berjaya di dunia & akhirat.

Since I wasn't home the whole morning ... so I did not exercise today.
Err .. OK, Ok ... no excuse !
I can still exercise in the evening ... Huh ??
Tapikan .... main kejar kejar dengan ayam lagi elok .. :-D
ha ha ha

OK .. forget about exercise
what about my diet?
Since I am a Malay ... bak kata Shiela Majid
org melayu mesti nak makan nasi ... apalagi kalau ada sambal belacan atau tempoyak
So what did I eat today ?
Nasi + Sambal ikan keli + kacang botol & bendi goreng tepung
Malam ni ... malam sabtu .. rasanya Abah Aisyah tentu belikan dia ayam goreng & keropok lekur di Pasar Malam. Hopefully dia beli jagung.
So my dinner wud be jagung rebus.
If not ... hemm ... makan nasi seround lagi ...
Yea !!
And there goes my diet plan ........ Oh! Dear .....

Ya illahi

I beg to You Allah
please don't take away the treasures of my life .....
I seek Your forgiveness for my sins
AND please don't take away the treasures of my life ..... please

I'm NOT Giving Up !!!

Some people are planners,
they like thinking ahead and being prepared,
they get a high from being on top of things.
But some things are beyond planning.
and life doesn't always turn out as planned.

You don't plan for a broken heart.
You don't plan for a failed business venture.
You don't plan for an autistic child.
You don't plan for spinsterhood.
You don't plan for a lump in your breast.

You plan to be young forever.
You plan to climb the corporate ladder.
You plan to be rich and powerful.
You plan to be acclaimed and successful.
You plan to conquer the universe.
You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.

You don't plan to be sad or hurt.
You don't plan to be broke or betrayed.
You don't plan to be alone in this world.
You don't plan to be shattered.

You plan to be happy.
Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want.
But most times, what you want and what you get are not the same.
We, mortals, plan. But so does Allah

Sometimes, it is difficult to understand Allah's plans especially when His plans are not in consonance with ours.
BUT we know that Allah will never abandon us nor send something we cannot cope with.
Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, Allah sends us pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, Allah sends us illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
Sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.

Credit to the one who wrote the above, whoever he or she is
Also to all who ever drop by, if you ever do,
I NEVER said I'm giving up !!! :-(
I AM NOT & NEVER WILL give up
It is disturbing when I found out that some people think that of me ..... Sob! Sob!Sob!
I know it is MY mistake for giving them that impression
so smack me til I die if they want .....
Just DON'T ever stop reproving me when I make mistakes.

What can I say ???

How many roads must a man walk down
Before you call him a man?
'n' how many seas must a white dove sail
Before she can sleep in the sand?
Yes, 'n' how many times must the cannon balls fly
ore they're forever banned?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.

How many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
'n' how many ears must one man have
Before he can hear people cry?
'n' how many deaths will it take till he knows
That too many people have died?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.

How many years can a mountain exist
Before it's washed to the sea?
'n' how many years can some people exist
Before they're allowed to be free?
Yes, 'n' how many times can a man turn his head,
Pretending he just doesn't see?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind

Today

Phew !!!
At last ... I did it ... I exercised ... Yea !!!
Err .. Sorry Simon ... I only did that for 30 mins
& I was looking at the clock ... like when is this going to be over ..... Urgh !!!
So I still think I'm not the blogger for you .... Sorry

I looked up The Best Life website & got an idea on what I can do
since I have to exercise everyday for 30 - 45 mins.
Oh! No ..
I'm so NOT into that "I like to exercise" thingy
I hate exercising
BUT I have to do it .... for my health
NOT to look good BUT to feel good !!!

AND Yes .. doctor, I'll be alert to the warning signs
especially the pain in my jaw
because that is almost always a warning to what's coming next : my neck cramps

I got to know my body ...
I got to know my soul ...
I know the life I want to live
I know MY OWN goal !!!
Yea !!! Clap!!..Clap!!..Clap!! ... ala-ala Cheer leaders gitu, hehehe

I am grateful to Allah swt for allowing me to live another day
& for everything that HE has granted me. Alhamdulillah

Look from The Eyes of The Poor

Think and look at life from the eyes of the poor,
those living in the slums ....
living in the ghettos ....

I Hope

Actually it's not my throbbing head I'm worried about
it's when my neck starts to cramp & I can't breathe
Thats when I feel my life is coming to its end
and I pray that Allah will forgive me & accept me as a muslim.
And I hope my family & frens & eFrens will forgive me too ....

My Therapeutic Frens

Fren 1:
******
Cit, cit, cit ...
Aku nak sidai kain la ... bukan nak bagi engkau makan
Cit, cit, cit ....
Pergi la makan kat sana .. kat sini mana ada makanan
Cit..cit..cit

dulu ada 8 sekarang tinggal 5
3 jantan & 2 betina.

Fren 2 :
*******
Chip ... chip .. chip
Janganla buang khazanah engkau kat ampaian aku, kalau engkau bertenggek kat situ pun khazanah engkau tu buang la jauh-jauh ...
Chip ... chip ..chip ....chip

p/s Saya cuma faham bahasa pipit, bahasa enggang saya tak faham ;-)
Lagipun enggang terbangnya tinggi ... kalau menyinggah pun, dia duduk nun di pohon tinggi
dia tak campur dgn kita-kita yg di bawah ni .....

Fren 3:
********
Miao ....
Alahai .. hari ni tak ada ikan la ... keropok boleh??
Miao .....

It's Ok if I don't have any frens to talk to, I still have my "Therapeutic Frens"
Sometimes these frens are better than humans
especially kalau manusia itu berPhD = berperasaan hasad dengki
yg suka tikam orang dari belakang
yg suka bermuka-muka
yg muka dua ..
depan kita dia baik, belakang kita lain cerita .....
manusia yg macam ular .. kaki belit
kaki penipu
GGggrrrrrr

Bye Bye

For the people I love ... my families in Pekan & KL, my frens in KL & Malacca, my 3 close eFrens in JB, SA & SG
When the time comes & I have to go ....
remember that I love you very much ....
and your lives must go on ... so BE HAPPY

Ajal

Blogging for Simon ???
Hemm ..
Writing about what I do everyday.. THATS boring
I have a pretty BBORRINGGG life !!!
Writing about how I reach my target weight ???
Hey ... what can I say ... I hardly stick to the routine

i) I'm suppose to start exercising today
Did I do it ???
NO
ii) I'm suppose to eat healthy - my diet should consists of 60% veges & fruits
Well, I'm not sure if it comes up to 60% ...
40% maybe

Actually .. I know I MUST do something
because my head is throbbing
there's a blood vessel in my head that keeps giving me that "signal"
I know if I don't do something, it will "POP!!!"
Sometimes I feel ... let it "POP!!!"
But then, I haven't done the 2 things I want to do the most :
i) perform my HAJJ
ii) meet my eFren & thank him in person for "memulihkan semangatku"
everytime I was depressed & down before.

So .. Dear GOD, please help me be healthy enough to accomplish those two things before I die.
Dah accomplish baru boleh meletup...
Err ... kalau ajal saya kerana aneurism la ...
mungkin saja ajal saya kerana penyebab yg lain

POKOKNYA Ya Allah .. aku mohon dengan sangat
yg paling penting sekali bagiku .. aku dapat pergi haji sebelum aku meninggal
yg kedua ... dapat ucapkan terima kasih secara semuka pada eFren aka Mr Counsellor aku yg satu itu
Mudah-mudahan Allah kabulkan permintaan aku. Amin.
Tapi kalau tak sempat .... kalau Allah tidak izinkan kerana bukan rezeki aku
maafkanlah aku Ya Allah kerana meminta-minta sesuatu yg bukan hakku

Ikhlas

Saat dunia berhenti berputar
Saat manusia tak sanggup lagi berharap
Ketika mentari tak sanggup lagi berjanji
Menyinari dunia yang bakal singgahi

Mampukah kau untuk berbagi
Tanpa hasrat ingin diberi
DihadapanNya, dihadapanMu Ya Allah

Sesungguhnya manusia takkan bisa
Menikmati syurga tanpa ikhlas dihatinya
sesungguhnya manusia takkan bisa
menyentuh nikmatNya tanpa tulus dihatinya

Aku Mohon Dengan Sangat ... Ya Allah

Aku serahkan diriku, jasadku, dan rohku padaMU Ya Allah
Maafkan aku Ya Allah ....
diriku memang tidak sempurna

Ya Allah, aku mohon dengan sangat
izinkanlah aku berada di dalam naunganMU
agar aku tidak terjerumus ke dalam sumur dosa
kerana cinta ini memang tidak mungkin lagiku tegah
Maafkanlah aku ........

Tapi bukankah semuanya terjadi di atas izin dariNYA??? Ujian ini memang berat bagiku .. Ya Allah tolonglah aku ...

Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup 2

Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup
telanlah aku ..makanlah aku
aku tak kempunan telur temakul ....

Err ... ni apa ke benda lak ni ....
Dah tahu tak kempunan, ngapa lak nak kena telan dgn Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup ????
Apa-apaan nih ???

Sebenarnya ... aku cuma merasa keseorangan
daripada aku duk sorang-sorang kat sini
lebih baik aku duk sorang-sorang dalam Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup tu.
Aku cuma ada teman ketawa.
My frens dissappear when I needed them the most.
Dan aku tidak boleh mengharapkan teman-teman eFrens aku
kerana sebagai eFren aku cuma wujud di alam maya.

Aku serahkan diriku, jasadku & rohku padaMU Ya Allah ....
lindungilah orang-orang yang aku sayangi
ENGKAU tahu kan siapa mereka?
lindungilah mereka agar mereka sentiasa berada di atas jalanMU yg terang & benar
dan mereka berbahagia di dunia & akhirat.
Jangan biarkan mereka Ya Allah ...
Aku serahkan diriku, jasadku & rohku padaMU .....

Orang-orang yang aku sayangi = ahli keluargaku, ibu bapa, kakak dan adik, anak-anak dan sahabat baik, juga eFrens yg paling aku ingat
walaupun aku cuma wujud di alam maya .. bagai halimunan, buat mereka

Jantung Hatiku & Ular Sawa

Setelah beberapa malam Aisyah demam panas dan sakit kepala,
akhirnya malam tadi dia semakin pulih. Alhamdulillah.
Pertama kali saya hadapi masalah begini.
Aisyah cuma demam pada waktu malam.
Siang hari dia sihat dan aktif seperti biasa.
Mula pukul 7 mlm suhu badan dia mula naik.
Selalunya dia cuba juga bertahan utk siapkan kerja rumah yg cikgu beri.
Juga utk makan malam walaupun dia tidak berselera.
Pukul 9.30 mlm saya beri dia ubat demam & tidorkan dia ...
Selalunya awal pagi, lebih kurang pukul 3 pagi, dia akan terjaga dan mencari saya.
Malam tadi panas badan dia tidak sekuat malam sebelumnya.
Dan dia juga kata kepala dia tak sakit sangat.
Alhamdulillah.
Mudah-mudahan dia semakin pulih .......
Aisyah jantung hati saya.
Saya takut kalau Allah swt cuma meminjamkan dia sekejap sahaja.
Kalau boleh Ya Allah, biarlah saya yg pergi dahulu drp Aisyah. :(

Dalam pada lega dgn keadaan Aisyah, malam tadi kami dapat kunjungan tetamu yg
tidak diundang.
Sekitar pukul 12 mlm, saya dgr anak-anak ayam kesayangan Aisyah bising.
Saya cuba suluh dgn lampu .. tak nampak apa-apa pun.
Tapi hati saya tetap tak sedap.
Saya berdoa minta Allah lindungi anak-anak ayam saya .... walaupun anak-anak ayam itu cuma binatang
Suami balik dari badminton pukul 1 pagi, terus saya minta dia periksa anak-anak ayam tu ...
Ha Engkau ... ada tetamu tak diundang dlm sangkar.
Perutnya dah kembung ... dah telan seekor & dalam proses nak telan seekor lagi.
Suami saya ketuk kepala dia sampai mati ...
"Siapa suruh telan anak ayam aku???"
Err ... Bang ... bukan ke memang makanan dia ??

If only .......

Indahnya suasana
kita di hari ini
ceria bersama bermesra
Erat silratulrahim
saling hormat menghormati
tuntutan agama yg mulia

Oh, mari bersama kita jalinkan
kasih sayang sesama insan
di hari ni kita mulakan moga kekal untuk selamanya

Indahnya jika kita dapat bersama
hidup selalu gembira di dunia ini .....
lagi indahnya jika kita dapat bersama
hidup di dalam gembira di akhirat sana .....

Erat silratulrahim
saling hormat menghormati
tuntutan agama yg mulia
yg tua dihormati
yg muda disayangi
cetuskan suasana harmoni

Oh, mari bersama kita jalinkan
kasih sayang sesama insan
di hari ni kita mulakan moga kekal untuk selamanya

If only .... if only ... if only ... :(

Bila Ku Sudah Tiada

Entah kenapa

Entah kenapa
hati sedih dan sayu
kesekian kalinya
terasa sepi dan pilu

Entah kenapa
yang hadir bagai tiada di sisi
yang tiada sangat ku rindui
yang pergi terbayang wajahnya
bagai tersenyum menunggu ketibaan saya

Mudah-mudahan yang dicintai
menerima saya di sana
bahagia di sisiNYA