Exercise, exercise, exercise !!!

I'm trying to incorporate these dance moves into my exercise routine
so exercise becomes more fun to do ....
Hemm ... anyone wants to join me ???

My Life is NOT about ME

My life is not about me ....
it's about giving my best, trying my best & striving for the best.

Giving my best to the people I love
Trying my best to be a mukmin Allah loves
Striving for the best in life in This World & The Hereafter.

May Allah swt guide me .... Amin.

Contagious !!!

I was in the toilet & I heard him go, " La ilahaillallah ... bodoh ... BODOH"
& I thot "kesian mamat world class football player dapat pangkat bodoh"

Then later while watching an update on the best & worst goal, I find myself going ...
"Ya Allah, ya tuhanku ..... itupun dia tak boleh nak goal ... so STU..." Err .. Bite my toungue !!!
Oops !!! I almost join the bandwagon ...
Really this "STUPID.... BODOH" thingy is very contagious
I must make sure I do not get infected.
And I don't even know what offside means.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah,
terima kasih Allah
atas izinMU, kami bersahabat
atas izinMU, kami berbalah
atas izinMU, kami saling memaafkan
dan atas izinMU juga
tali persahabatan ini kembali pulih.

Tidak akan ku ulangi lagi kesilapan di masa lalu
tidak akan ku ulangi lagi kebodohan diriku
tidak akan ku ulangi lagi menyakiti hati seorang sahabat,
insyaAllah, dengan izinMU Allah
akan selalu aku ingat.

Maafkan Diri Ini

Tudung periuk, tudung periuk
pandai menari
menarilah lagu, menarilah lagu
putera mahkota
kainlah yang buruk, kain yang buruk
berikan kami
buat menyapu, buat menyapu
si airmata .....

Ya Allah, my fren is as important to me as my husband.
I got my husband back but I lost my treasured fren. :-(
The pain and sadness is just as bad .......
Ya Allah ... ENGKAUlah yang Maha Tahu

Maafkan Diri Ini !!!

Diri telah melakukan suatu kekhilafan yang menyebabkan sebuah ukhuwah yang terbina mulai menemui keretakan. Diri ini mulai sadar akan erti sebuah persahabatan yang ditunjukkan oleh seorang insan berhati mulia bernama sahabat. Maafkan kerana tidak menyedari apa yang telah terjadi di atas kebodohan diriku sendiri, yang telah menghilangkan sinaran sahabat sejati yang ku inginkan dan hampir ku capai. Namun atas kebodohan diri ini menyebabkan ia terlepas dari genggaman yang belum kuat memegang tali persahabatan.

Lupakan yang lalu, marilah kita bina semula ukhuwah yang sudah musnah dan perbaiki tali persahabatan yang terputus kerana persahabatan ini boleh diperbaiki dan jika kita menjagainya pasti ia tidak akan rosak seperti komputer yang begitu banyak menyimpan memori indah. Berikanlah semula sinar sahabat yang sudah malap.

MAAFKAN DIRI INI !!!

Mengapa sedih banget ???

Ya Allah, kenapa saya sedih banget ni .. sampai terisak-isak dalam mimpi?
Eh, I know lar this one bukan alamat .. this one bukan mainan tido either
just my inner feelings (that I have been suppressing) showing it's ugly face.

Ya Allah, mengapa saya sedih begini ?
I guess my unconscious self was trying to tell me how much i treasure a frenship
even if it's only an eFrenship ... BUT then my conscious self already know that !!!
So .. while the conscious self was trying not to cry, the unconscious self just decided to let it all out
Waa!!!
Eh, silap ... terisak-isak: Sob! Sob! Sob! ... bukan meraung !!!

Ya saya tahu, Pekan not suppose to banjir yet ...

Our Getaway - For us !!!

This was our getaway for 2 days & 1 nite minus the children.

Alhamdulillah. Since the initial problem was more emotional than physical, all we needed was an emotional resolution.
We're moving on for US!!!.
It does not need for him to be dead for me to be happy or for me to be dead for him to be happy, we're both still alive & kicking & we ARE happy.
We had a romantic time at the beach, under the stars. Though the sound of the waves was quite scary, (it's the start of the Monsoon season) I felt safe and peaceful being with him.
Conclusion : It was a good getaway.
We'll try to do this more often. For me, personally, once a year pun cukup. (It really does not take much to please me.)

BUT of course we had a little inevitable interruption ... that every one hour call from Aisyah.
"Ibu buat apa? ... Abah buat apa??.... Ibu dgn Abah kat mana???"
Aiyo .... kacau only... hehehe.

I Need A Fren

What I really need is different from what's written
on the card.
I just need the following :-

I need A Fren
I can trust
A fren who is willing to help me through the worst,
walk alongside me,
correct me when I'm wrong,
A fren I can learn from
A fren who is willing to be my fren till the end

*********************************
My fren,

Shall we walk together?
May I learn from you?
Will you correct me when I'm wrong
or pull me up when I fall?
Or are you going to leave me behind when I could not keep up with you???

Dedication To My Husband

Lihatlah langit di atas sana
tersenyum melihat tingkah kita
selalu ada peristiwa yang membawa pertengkaran
Maksudku hanya ingin yang baik
untuk kita berdua dalam bercinta
baiknya aku buruknya aku
terimalah aku apa adanya

Pastikan kau dengan aku
jangan ada cinta lain
tak pernah aku terlintas niatku utk berpaling
maafkanlah aku sayang
bila belum kau bahagia
sejauh langit di atas kanku kejar bahagiamu

Biar langit dan bumi meruntuh
biar jasad kita tertimbun di sana
tetap bersama tak ingin lepas
mencintaimu ku jadi begini ......

Macam-macam kerenah

Hari ini utk raikan anak UPSR, I cooked her fav. food for lunch : Sotong goreng tepung.
That of course triggered Aisyah's reaction : "Ichah pun dapat 5A jugak ... Ichah dapat SEMUA A"
Mind you, she particularly stressed the "semua"
"Ala ... Ichah nanti dulu la .. hari ni hari kakak"
Ahamdulillah, nasib baiklah she is not that difficult to please.

In the morning before that, Sulaiman called.
"Ibu, Leman ingat hari ni nak gi bandar ... insyaAllah"
Boleh jugak kalau nak buat bodoh : "so???"
Tapi demi anak lah katakan, macamana pun akan sentiasa ada perasaan kesian ... justeru itu kita pun faham-faham je lah
"nanti Ibu cuba masukkan duit ... kalau ada, adalah ye; kalau tak de, tak de ... Awak ada nak beli
apa-apa ke? Saja nak jalan-jalan je kan ??"
"Saje je ..."
Hemm .... & there goes my plan .... baru je ingat nak beli barang petang nanti

Last nite, Shuib called from Langkawi. Dia ikut rombongan sekolah.
"Ibu ... duit tinggal RM30 je .."
"Huh, Awak beli apa?"
" Beli T-shirt, beli cenderahati, semua-semua tu la ...tengok-tengok dah tinggal 30"
" Eh, Ya ... dah lah tu, tak payah beli-beli lagi, simpan untuk makan, ni ada berapa hari lagi nak
sampai hari Isnin, kang tak makan lak kang"
Hehehe ... terdengar suara dia ketawa dgn kawan-kawan dia.
Nak kirim duit, dia tak ada ATM card ...
buku bank pun pada Ibu, dia yang suruh simpankan
Double hemm .....

The children ... memang suka mengadu dgn Ibu, especially kalau pasal duit.
Ibu don't earn much .. just enuff to help out.
Kadang-kadang terpacul jugak : "Ingat Ibu chop duit ke??"
and always, their respond to it : hahaha
because they know Ibu tak berkira dgn mereka. Lagipun Ibu memang sayang anak-anak Ibu.
So they know when I have the money, I WILL share with them & when I don't have the money to share, it's really OK.

Hantu Trang Trong

FED UP !!!
I couldn't get rid of the Hantu
I know that he/she has infected my system so much so that
when I clicked a certain URL, he'd pop up & sent his spam msg to
everyone in my list.
And then .....
dan yg PALING buat aku MERADANG ....
he wrote on MY document
GERAMNYA aku .......
Now that I do not activate my YM, he/she is trying other ways to piss me.
You reading my mails mister ???
Do you expect to find love notes in there ???
They are all love notes .... coz I love all my frens ... hahaha
Frust nonggeng le engkau !!!

Repost - To Cheer Myself Up !!!

Strike out a simple song
whenever trouble comes along
you can right what's wrong
with a simple song

One merry melody
can turn into a symphony
keep your spirits strong
with a simple song

A simple song
won't let you down
when there's no sign of help around

Sigh out a simple tune
and you'll be feeling better soon
you can right what's wrong
with a simple song

What I am ....

I do not define myself
by how many roadblocks appeared in my path;
but by the courage I have found to forge new roads.

I do not define myself
by how many disappointments I have faced;
but by the forgiveness and faith I have found to begin again.

I do not define myself
by how long a relationship last;
but by how I have loved and have been willing to love again.

I do not define myself
by how many times I have been knocked down;
but by how many times I have struggled to my feet.

I do not define myself
by how many times I have appeared like a fool;
but by the number of risks I have taken.

I do not define myself
by the number of mistakes I have made;
but by the knowledge I have learned from trying new ways.

I am not my pain... I am not my past.
I am that which I have emerged.

A poem that I very much relate to, shared by Ali Yan from Xcite.

Just saying .....

Kita nak siapkan kerja secepat mungkin .. dia asyik suruh itu & ini
Tak tolong kang dia merajuk
Lagipun rasa guilty lak kalau tak tolong so ... terpaksalah tinggalkan kerja
Bila rasa-rasa confident dia boleh buat sendiri, saya tinggalkan jugak ....
back to my work!!!

Beberapa jam kemudian ....
Ait!! apahal senyap pulak orang tua ni ... dah beres ke??
"Bang, dah dapat ke??"
"Cubalah try telefon"
019- XXXXXXX
"Demi cintaku padamu ....." (Search - Fantasia Bulan Madu, just in case u people don't know)
hahahaha .... couldn't help it la .....just got to laugh
No, no, no ... don't get it wrong.
My husband tak ada caller ID ringtone so that song is his ringtone for everyone,
family, frens AND ..... his Boss.
I was imagining him singing "Demi cintaku padamu ...." to his boss.

Hahaha
Aduhai, sakit perut aku ketawa .....

Don't Stop

i) Just when I thot I want to stop writing .... tak de semangat nak menulis,
tiba-tiba ada pulak adik-adik yg minta terus menulis di group.
Actually .. the truth is ada ramai yg melalui nasib yg serupa ngan saya ...
cuma mereka tidak bersuara
so my "voice" was actually representing them as well ...

ii) Just when I thot of saying,"Goodbye"
I got reminded ... Don't stop trying utk memulihkan sebuah ikatan, samada ikatan persahabatan maupun ikatan perkahwinan. Never give up on your frens & family !!!
Kiranya I'm like the stubborn donkey in Shrek.

Therefore .... conclusion: DON'T STOP
Don't stop trying
Don't stop writing
Don't stop going for the best .....

PEACE to all ... for all !!!
May Allah swt guide me always. Amin.

Goodbye, Selamat Tinggal

Though the following videos are not quite relevant
because they are about LOVE between a man & a woman
whereas I'm talking about FRIENDSHIP ..... I dedicate the songs to my "lost treasures".

I feel peaceful making peace with people who wants to make peace. :)
So ... PEACE to all of you!!!
Pada mereka yang masih juga tidak mahu berbaik ... ya terserahlah
Saya sudah cuba berbaik semula.
Kiranya saya sudah cuba memulihkan ikatan silraturahim antara kita tapi kamu yang enggan menerimanya.
Therefore : "Goodbye .... Selamat Tinggal"
Padahal semangat saya bagaikan hilang bila kamu "menghilang" daripada senarai "harta" saya.
Persahabatan kamu adalah antara harta saya yang tidak ternilai harganya.
Jadi "hilang" nya kamu benar-benar melukakan hati saya.
PLEASE .... I'm talking FRENSHIP here .... JUST FRENS ..... FRENS i care about.
Nothing more than that!!!

Goodbye

Selamat Tinggal