Salam Idul Fitri

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sedia terjalin merentasi sempadan
ampun dan maaf, tulus ikhlas dipersembah
semoga ceria di hari lebaran

Dalam kesempatan saling berziarah
"Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum" diucapkan
kerana ia merupakan amalan Rasulullah
wajarlah dijadikan ikutan

What Color is Your Heart?

It's another quiz I took at facebook : What color is your heart?

The result : I've got a purple heart

I'm supposed to be multi-faceted
I guess so ... like an onion with many layers .. people think I'm cool when I'm actually like a nervous wreck deep down ...

It adds to the fact that I'm supposed to "normally indulged in controlled passion"
Ya ... I can control my emotions when I want to

I am also supposed to be full of desire and show concern for others over self
The latter is something that I do out of habit. When you've been through painful experiences, you don't want others to go through it too. It's just not right

The actual person that I am ... only ALLAH swt knows

Reputation vs Character

From CiteX (Fatima Bux):-

The circumstances amid which your life determine your reputation;
the truth you believe determines your character.

Reputation is what you are supposed to be;
character is what you are.

Reputation is the photograph;
character is the face.

Reputation comes over one from without;
character grows up from within.

Reputation is what you have when you come to a new community;
character is what you have when you go away.

Your reputation is learned in an hour;
your character does not come to light for a year.

Reputation is made in a moment;
character is built in a lifetime.

Reputation grows like a mushroom;
character grows like the oak.

A single newspaper report gives you your reputation;
a life of toil gives you your character.

Reputation makes you rich or makes you poor;
character makes you happy or makes you miserable.

Reputation is what men say about you on your tombstone;
character is what angels say about you before the throne of God.

Are You Romantic??

Just for fun I did the quiz at Facebook & Voila !!!
This is what I got :-

I'm Independent romantic
You don't really care about guys! You see them as friends and don't need one for you to be happy. Guys love this. You love to party and hang out with friends, and just have a good time. But be careful!! One day you'll probably just start seeing guys as more than friends so don't blow off all the guys now!! Keep being you!!

What say me???

BUT ya ... I'll keep being me .....

My Wish on My Birthday

It's my birthday today ...
Only God knows what's in my heart ....

I'm wishing ...wishing .. & wishing ....
"Ya illahi ..ya illahi ..Ya illahi ..Ya illahi ..."
" please O Allah, grant me this wish .. that only YOU know
and only YOU can grant me" Amin.

What makes me happy?

Yes ... only I know what makes me happy
AND I am responsible in keeping meself happy.

So what makes me happy?

i) When I have fulfilled my duties ... & that is :-
setelah saya memberikan haknya kepada yang berhak.
a) Hak Allah swt - solat, baca Qur'an, dzikir
b) Hak keluarga - melayan dan memenuhi keperluan mereka
c) Hak sahabat, jiran, saudara seagama - menjaga silaturahim
d) Hak kenalan/bukan kenalan yg tidak seagama - menjaga tatasusila
g) Hak para haiwan yang muncul dalam hidupku -
Err ... Ok, this one goes from "Watcha .. SMACK!!!" (Nyamuk & lalat) to ... "Aku posa ni ..
sampai hati ko tak posa ... asyik nak mintak makan je ..." (Ayam & the stray cats & birds that
visit my backyard)

ii) When I know that I have given the best I can give ... in fulfilling my duties above and in my
work. And also in helping those in need. I'll try my best to give the best !!!

iii) Last but not least, is knowing people I care about are happy ...
Semoga kalian berbahagia di dunia & akhirat. Amin.

My Daughter My Fren

Friendship = When a group of people called frens travel in a ship together

I was telling Aisyah I don't have frens in Pekan
coz basically all my frens in Pekan are teachers & my close ones
have all been transfered elsewhere, out of Pekan.
So now there's just me ....
Aisyah's reply :-
"Ibu, you have one fren here"
"Huh"
"I'm your fren" (she said that accompanied with hugs & kisses)

Err .. when your daughter says she's your fren, would you have anything more to say ??
I surrender .... there's nothing left to complain..........hehehe

Tugu Kesabaran

Apakah aku mampu
membina semula tugu kesabaranku yang roboh ???

Women

They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up for injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer when there is a better solution.

They go without shoes so their children can have them.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a new marriage.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart

Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin!
Women do more than just give birth.
They bring joy and hope.
They give compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have a lot to say and a lot to give.

Goodbye Ina

My Heart bleeds .... & keeps on bleeding .....

Menangis di sisiNYA

Merenung ke luar, melihat
api pelita di laman kian samar
sesamar pelita hati yang pudar
dalam kerinduan yang mencengkam
tiada bakal terubat

Runtun hati mengadu pada Tuan Pemilik diri
pengkurnia rasa hati
ku alih tumpuan dan rasa hanya padaNYA
menjadi rindu untuk bertemu, DIA

Airmata mengalir lagi
pada DIA aku mohon, ampun dan maaf
merayu jangan ditinggalkan
sekalipun harta seisi dunia, tak akan bisa menebus dosa
dosa hati yang hanya Tuan Penguasa mengetahui

Maafkan aku .........
Ramadhan kali ini penuh kesedihan
dan aku tiada teman menangis ..........
maka aku mohon kepada Tuan Pencipta
izinkan aku menangis di sisiNYA.

Please Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood

I admit I make mistakes
but ....
people do tend to misunderstand me
therefore I only share my story with people I trust ...
Unfortunately ... sometimes even the people I trust also don't understand ....
Aiyo ....

My Songs To My Children

Ku tahu ku tak kan selalu ada utkmu di saat engkau merindukan diriku
ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu yang panjang dalam hidupku
yakinlah bahawa engkau adalah cintaku yang selama ini ku cari dalam hidupku
dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku yang panjang dalam hidupku

Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
pasti pun semua orang pun yang tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku .....
meskipun engkau sejuta batu dariku ....... (modified)

No matter how far away you are my children ... I will always love you & you will always be in my heart

Senyumanmu satu azimat
buat diriku yang hina
manusia terpinggir melarat
tak pernah kenal erti bahagia
namun ku masih gembira bagiku rahmat semuanya ...
(watching your pictures .... when you were all smiling, happy & innocent little toddlers)

Jika dunia aku yang punya
akan ku hiaskan sepasang sayap putih dan berseri
untukku kemudi sepanjang masa tanpa kecewa
bertemankan bintang yang setia
bagaikan puteri bisa khayalan yang hidupnya suci dan sempurna
tapi sayang hanyalah impian
bulan tak bisa tumbuh di taman
dan bila mentari datang pulanglah segala kenyataan
(If only .. if only I can take all your pains away... i'd give my life if i have to)

Terciptalah lagu ini untuk kita
dari laut bergelora dan mengundang bencana
andai kata bumi ini tak berdaya, tak tertanggung
beban dusta gundah gulana meledaklah
Di mana kau yang ku cinta, dalam hati mungkin mimpi
kau di mana dalam jiwa sanubari sedang mengunciku
dengan hakiki cinta sejati
hanyutlah aku di lautan rindu
redha kah kita dgn bencana
dapatkah kita mengatasinya ..... insyaAllah, jawabnya
(My prayers for you, my children ... always... semoga menjadi orang yang kuat dalam menghadapi dugaan/ujian Allah swt
Semoga Allah menuntun hati kita sehingga kita tetap berada di atas jalanNYA yg lurus
walau apapun yang terjadi. Amin.)

Conversations That Make My Day !!!

i) Siapa sumber inspirasi awak?
Sumber inspirasi tu apa ?
Contohnya, siapa yang buat awak bersemangat untuk belajar, yang buat awak rasa
suka untuk belajar, yang buat awak rasa ingin berjaya?
Ibu

ii) Siapa sahabat yang paling awak sayang?
HeHeHe
Malu ke nak beritahu?
HeHeHe
Awak tahu siapa sahabat ibu yang paling ibu sayang?
Pst ..pst .. pst
Mana awak tahu?
Sebab Ibu selalu doakan dia ...
HeHeHe ...
Memanglah kalau kita sayang pada sahabat kita, kita mesti selalu doakan dia
supaya kita sama-sama berjaya, sama-sama happy, sama-sama dapat masuk syurga,
insyaAllah.

iii) Ibu, sebenarnya Ichah dah siapkan hadiah nak bagi Ibu tapi Ichah tak nak bagi lagi ...
Apa salahnya bagi sekarang ... Zahra dah lama dah bagi Ibu. Ibu simpan je ... nanti 19 hb
baru Ibu guna
HeHeHe
Hemm..... ni apa cerita si Minah anak intan ibu ni ....

iv) Urh .. masamnya!!! (Abah yang cakap waktu dia bersandar kat Abah)
Ibu, Ichah masam ke ??
Ibu kan suka bau masam Ichah .... so .... tak kisahlah Ichah masam ke tak
HeHeHe
Anak ku .. sejuta kali pun ibu peluk & cium dalam sehari ... tetap Ibu tak rasa puas

v) Tengok sinetron - babak Si anak yg sedang sakit minta Ibunya melahirkan adik baru
untuknya. Aisyah yg baru menerima kenyataan bahawa dia adalah anak bongsu Ibu
terus mengomel :-
"Ingat senang ke nak lahirkan adik baru ....."
HeHeHe ....
Wahai anak .... mudah-mudahan Allah swt memberi hidayah padamu sehingga kamu
menjadi anak, isteri dan ibu yang solehah.

"Penguasa alam .... tolonglah pegangi aku .. biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa
yg terkutuk & menyesatkan cintaku
Aku bukan Nabi yg bisa sempurna ... ku tak luput dari dosa
andainya ku bisa lebih adil dalam cinta
biarlah ku hidup seperti ini ... takdir cinta harus begini .....
ada kau dan dia bukan ku yg mahu
Oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku"

Mudah-mudahan Ramadhan

Mudah-mudahan Ramadhan membawa rahmat
ikatan yang terurai kembali bersimpul,
perdamaian mengakhiri sengketa
bahagia kembali terasa

Mudah-mudahan Ramadhan melimpahkan berkat
kecewa di hati tiada terlekat
luka bertaut calar pun tiada
senyuman terukir melerai duka

Saya tahu saya yang khilaf
maafkan saya ......???

1 Ramadhan

Hemm... cuaca kat Pekan ni hujan dari pagi
sebagaimana hujannya hati saya ...
gara-gara perbalahan di akhir Sya'ban

Oleh kerana kesejukan .... bebudak yg dua org kat rumah ni tak lah lasak sgt
tapi suasana sejuk membuatkan mereka cepat lapar
so ... belum pukul 4 ptg, Aisyah dah ngadu, "tak sabar nak tunggu buka"
Esok mereka sekolah .... entah macam mana lah nanti
Yang pasti malam ni ... insyaAllah mereka ikut tarawih macam malam tadi
Aisyah duk tanya ngapa bila tarawih imam baca ayat panjang-panjang.
I said sebab imam nak khatam Qur'an pada akhir Ramadhan
"Tapi 27 Ramadhan nanti, imam balik kampung ....."
Err ... imam khatam sendirilah kot ......
Aduhai ... is this a trick question or what ???

Sebenarnya, saya menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan dgn hati yg luka, kecewa & kesedihan yg sangat berat. Tapi semuanya tersembunyi dalam hati. Pada Tuhan yg Maha Mengetahui ...
semoga Allah swt tidak membiarkan saya sendirian tanpa cahayaNYA.
Pada bulan Ramadhan ini Ya Allah, aku mohon ... makbulkanlah permintaan aku dalam solat hajatku semalam. Amin.