Kepada Yang Tidak Mahu Diganggu

Kepada yang tidak mahu diganggu ......
saya mohon ampun dan maaf
ampun kerana sering mengambil waktumu
maaf kerana tidak menyedari
bahwa "gangguan" saya menyakitkan hati

Kepada yang tidak mahu diganggu ....
saya janji tidak akan menganggumu lagi
semoga kamu dilindungi selalu
disayangi Allah,
bahagia dunia akhirat

Akan selalu saya ingat
setiap pesan dan nasihat
yang pernah kamu ucapkan dulu
akan selalu saya doakan
seperti yang pernah saya janji
sehingga saat dipanggil illahi

Maaf .... saya mohon
berbanyak maaf
ampun .... saya pinta
beribu ampun
dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki
dzahir dan bathin
kepada kamu yang tidak mahu diganggu ...........

Perahu Buruk

Sebuah perahu buruk
teringin meredah lautan
menuju pulau kecil, terpencil
nun jauh di selatan
berlayar ia,
perlahan-perlahan

Perahu buruk dilambung ombak
gagah ia hadapi, berkali-kali
ombak menghempas diri .....
perahu buruk masih nekad
merentasi lautan luas
demi impian menuju pulau
yang kelihatan setia menanti

Perahu buruk dilanda badai
hancur berkecai
serpihan perahu terapung-apung
dihanyut ombak ke pulau kecil
nun jauh di selatan,
namun pulau tidak sudi
menerima serpihan perahu yang hancur
yang menjadi sampah sisa lautan ..............

Dalam kita menginginkan sesuatu, tidak semestinya orang lain pun menginginkannya
Saya harus menyedari itu agar saya tidak menjadi seperti perahu buruk itu, mengharapkan sesuatu berlaku sedangkan orang yang saya "harap"kan itu tidak pernah mengharapkannya , bahkan mungkin dia mengharapkan ia tidak berlaku ............

Are You Listening ???

Have you ever been in this situation :-

i) "Hello ... are you listenning ???"
when you're saying something and get no response
ii) "Eh, you memang pekak, ke buat-buat pekak ??? "
- as above -
iii) "buat membazir air liur je ..... "
or "buat penat aku bercakap je ..."
when you had explained something but the other party still repeats the same mistakes
iv) " didn't I just say that ...?" or "thats what I said ...."
when you said something and gets a response but its actually just a repeat of what you said ..
v) " I didn't say that ...." or "thats not what I said ..."
when you're saying A & he's saying Z, you're talking about the past & he's talking about now.....it becomes a heated debate over something that does not connect.
Pokoknya ...... rasa macam nak tenyeh je buat sambal belacan ....


tapi kena keep cool ........

ALLAH Sends His Reminder

As usual .... ALLAH sends His reminder
i) I asked for something I shouldn't have & ALLAH swt did not grant it thus far.
Yesterday something happened & somehow I realised that change does not mean I have to "go"
I'm saying a different prayer now BUT I'm still asking for a change in my life.
ii) I said all I need is ALLAH swt
Then ALLAH swt permitted someone to send me an email. In it was an advice :-
In the centre of every relationship is ALLAH swt
Meaning???
ALLAH swt is the centre to all our life's treasures. Thus it is wrong for me to say that all I need is ALLAH because to get to the centre I need my life's treasures which are my family & friends.
And it is ALLAH swt who determines what kind of relationship I have with them.
Put it this way ... why do we trust one friend and share with him our life's secret & yet, remain distant to another??. Because it is ALLAH who ordained who becomes our true fren, who becomes our close frens, who becomes "just" frens
and who are so not our frens.
Similarly ALLAH had ordained who we marry ... & if the marriage last or not
The important thing is whatever we do in our relationships we must adhere to what
ALLAH has commanded us through The Qur'an and through His messenger.
When we fail to do that, it means we have failed to put ALLAH in His place.
Hence ... leading to our unhappiness.
Problem is, it takes two to tango
When its a one person's "show", it's going to take a lot of sacrifice to keep the relationship going.
Break ups occur when ALLAH permitts that sacrifices can no longer work.
Me ?? I keep reminding myself that The Prophet said "keep the ties of kinship (silratulrahim)" in one of his hadith reported by Bukhari & Muslim so I try to maintain the kinship with family & frens as best I could.
When ALLAH permitts that it can no longer be .... so be it.
iii) Everytime I thought things are going to be alright. Something happened and I'm back to square one. Why is that ???
The way I see it, when ALLAH permitts that love ends, it ends no matter what & no matter how hard I try to rekindle what is lost, what's gone is gone.
I have tried to bring it back. I was moving one step forward, then things happened & I went two steps back. So thats it !!! I'm going to stop trying.
iv) I am just an actor acting out a drama written by ALLAH
When the time comes and my drama ends ... I'll take a bow & "go"

For now :-

I learned to let go of yesterday
to stop hoping for tomorrow
and live my life today
for yesterday had passed
tomorrow may never come
and today is all I have ............

Forgive me ALLAH

Airmata dalam Sujud

Dalam sujud mengabdikan diri
insaf ....
sememangnya tidak layak meminta-minta
hakikat .......
tempatku mengadu padaMu cuma
yang berkuasa memberi hanya Kamu

Airmata mengalir membasah bumi
dalam esak menangis
rebah ......
aku mohon perkenan
hanya padaMu Tuhan

Airmataku jatuh dalam sujud
aku merayu dalam sembah
pasrah ....
akan ku terima ketentuan
takdir hidupku yang telah Engkau suratkan

Priceless Gem

Have they lost the priceless gem ???
who gave his all
in every effort
to meet demands no matter what
and yet .....
they insulted him, did not appreciate him
they let him go ???
for every blood and every sweat, they will regret
'tis the biggest mistake they ever make
losing the priceless gem

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Have you lost it ???
this priceless gem
who loved without condition
taking care of your every need and want, no matter how
and yet ......
you never bothered, never listened to her cry of pain
you left her alone???
for every tears and every sorrow, you will be sorry
'tis a regret you have to bear
losing this priceless gem

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