Competition

I know that most of the time when people enter competitions they want to win. But I also know that competitions held during Family Day are meant for strengthening ukhuwah and silratulrahim. Thus I find competitive "I MUST WIN" attitude quite disturbing ..
I mean, Hei ... ni Amazing Race ke yg sampai nak cantas orang ...
So eager was she to eliminate her rival ... namely ..... ME !!! HeHe
Yup ... I was supposed to be in Round Three but she wanted to slash me out. And I just couldn't be bothered so I let it be .. no Round Three for me. AND thats fine
Actually I didn't even give my name ... me partner did. I only signed up for Bowling and
even that was because the Comittee Members are my frens & they said,"Tulis je la nama ... Suka suka je "
Plus another sister said, " Ni lah masa kita nak main, kalau tak .... main dgn periuk belanga je ...."
During bowling, which was the second game, the heat was a bit much for me. I had to ask, "This is just for fun, right ???"
I didn't take the game seriously but I was lucky, I made good hits & they(that particular group of competitive mothers) said, "Dia dah biasa main ni" Huh??
Now since when do I play bowling??? And with buah kelapa??? Hello ..... this is just a game !!!
Then came Mrs Rival No 2 & she went Plonk at the pins. Someone protested,"Itu bukan bowling .. itu baling ..." HeHeHe
We replied, " Tak pe la SUKA-SUKA je ..."
Aduhai ....

Truth is I never like competing. During sch days, I was once selected to represent my house in the 100m race but I went into hiding. Its not the race that I hate, I love running.
Actually, hurdles is my favourite. My House Captain who saw me hurdling alone, called out
"Ya.. that chinese girl has the right technic" Ha ?? Wei, Me MALAY ok
Yup, I was hurdling alone ..... because I love hurdles BUT I hate competing.
I hate being the one that holds everyone's hope.
Once, I was selected to be in a Quiz (could not hide this time) and our team went into "Pusingan Penentu"
The sch went silent, I felt all eyes on me and I was thinking, "Matilah aku ..."
Ya ... sure.... proud was I when I became the hero ... err .. heroin
but in that final moment when I held everyone's hope, I really felt like the ground should swallow me up.

Frankly, I even hate competing for attention. I had frens who were popular in sch/college .
Everytime we hang out together, there'll be others wanting her/his attention.
Usually, I'd say, " Pergilah .. its OK" though sometimes they felt guilty for leaving.
Sometimes my frens wud come back & we'd hang out else where.
Other times I wud be left alone .... it didn't matter because I believe True Frens will always come back !!!
And True frenship will last.
Not wanting to compete for attention was the reason I broke up with My "Cinta Tiga Musim" ex. Ada saja orang claiming to be his gf. The Third Musim, he told me its my fault he proposed to the other girl. And I said, "Ya .. I'm a BAD person, have a good life, Congratulations on yr Wedding !!!" Never heard fr him again.
Tell me, if you were in my place, would u have competed for his attention ???
Oh Well .... it does not matter coz I've got me own partner now & I didn't have to compete for his attention though he too had his own strings of "peminat"