Hard Road ???

Someone once asked me "why do you always insist on taking the hard road ???"
and I replied "why do you assume I see two roads ???"

Adakalanya apa yg kelihatan pada mata orang lain tidak sama dgn apa yg sebenarnya

Go Ahead.... Humor Me !!!

Ok..... am I being naive or simply plain stupid ???
Actually not just one person said it.....that term yg orang melayu guna... "lurus bendul"
Is that good or bad ???
Ya ..Ok ...are we not suppose to be "buruk sangka" ???
How am I suppose to know that some people have twisted minds ???
They can twist the simple things and see 'm' as 'w' and 'b' as 'd'
So..go ahead..... humor me ......

I said," tell him I say, "I luv you""
and they said, "she says "Uoy vuli....""
Ha ha ha .......
Hey ...what exactly does it mean ??? .. this "Uoy vuli"
Tell you what ...........
Try this one ... "gnaba ...ufo gnikniht llits"

Update on The Two Best of Friends

Best Friends Forever ???

Hari Amirul dapat surat tawaran ke SDAR, Seremban dia terus menghubungi Shuib tapi Shuib tak ada. Saya yg jawab telefon. Saya khabarkan pada Shuib & saya rasa itulah yg buat Shuib hilang konsentrasi... Ustaz jadi terkejut ..."kenapa masa temuduga markahnya antara 10 terbaik tapi sekarang jadi pertengahan, di antara 48 org yg terpilih utk sesi percubaan,markah dia di tempat yg ke 20 lebih?"
Akhirnya Shuib gagal mendapat tempat 20 teratas yg diperlukan utk menyertai Maahad Tahfiz Pekan...Shuib dpt tempat ke 21.
Tapi Shuib dapat tawaran ke SHAH, Pekan.
Saya suruh dia pergi jumpa Amirul sebelum balik KL tapi entah macammana tak sempat juga...sebab Jumaat pagi Abahnya dah ajak balik.

Hari Sabtu pukul 10 malam, tiba-tiba dapat panggilan dari Maahad, Shuib diminta daftar sebelum pukul 6 ptg hari Ahad.
Saya minta Shuib fikir habis-habis, nak balik dan daftar masuk Maahad atau masuk SHAH yg memang jadi sekolah idamannya sejak Tahun 1.
Sebelum tido, saya tanya Shuib "apa keputusannya?"
dan tanpa ragu Shuib jawab "balik".
Bergegas kami balik semula ke Pekan pada hari Ahad, 25 Dis 2005.
Sekarang Ahmad Shuib menjadi pelajar Maahad Tahfiz Pekan, rezeki dia setelah 2 org pelajar tarik diri.
Amirul, InsyaALLAH akan ke SDAR pada 12 Januari 2006.

Apa kata Shuib ??? "Tak pe ...nanti masih boleh berhubung."
Maksud dia??? .... nanti masih boleh berhubung dgn Amirul lah tu .......

Apa yg saya doakan???
Buat mereka berdua .. semoga berjaya dunia akhirat dan persahabatan mereka berkekalan ke akhir hayat ...... Insya ALLAH ...Amin.

** Note : SDAR = Sek Men Sains Datuk Abdul Razak, Seremban , Negri Sembilan
SHAH = Sek Men Sains Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah, Pekan, Pahang
Maahad Pekan = Maahad Tahfiz AlQuran Wal Qiraat Tengku Ampuan Afzan, Pekan

Lelah

Lelah ..teramat lelah
terasa lelah tiada daya....
hanya kerana ingat padaNYA
buat hatiku tabah
terus bertahan lagi ......
ku mohon padamu ALLAH
semoga aku bertemu dgnMU
dengan wajah berseri ........
hati sebersih,sejernih,sesuci air syurgawi
dan rohku disinari cahaya illahi ..........

PHSM II ... Ku Seru

Have not seen the movie .. but the song has a nice lyric :-

Ku Seru
*********
Ku membayangi ... jiwa hatimu
tapi perpisahan menunggu
Ku ingin membelaimu
namun kasihku tiada restu

Diri begini .... kerna selamanya
ditinggalkan marah .. sengsara
hingga hilang terlupa
siapa aku sebenarnya sayang ......

Oh...dengarlah sayu tangisanku
mengapa degupanmu ku seru
kerna kesepian nan terlalu
kembalikan hidup yang ku rindu

Oh...dengarlah sunyi tangisanku
kau tahu ku amat menyayangimu
Oh..pergilah ..kau bukan milikku
pulang pada yang mengasihi ...dirimu....

(Kau ku seru ..kesepian berlalu.....maafkan daku..)

Sampai di sini
ku lepaskan kau pergi
biar ku damai bersemadi
lukamu ku mengerti
kan ku hilangkan derita ini ......

Well....cuba bayangkan kalau SRK or Hrithik Roshan berlakon jadik dracula ....
tgh pikat mangsa siap menari-nari lagi ....... HeHeHe
atau Kareena Kapoor jadik Pontianak ...... ???
Dan gara-gara rambut Pontianak Maya Karin yg panjang mengurai dan lawa
saya jadik mangsa jadik model rambut bagi anak-anak ... Adoii !!!
"sebab rambut kami pendek ... rambut ibu panjang.....ibulah jadik model"
Huh ???
Adoii !!! Botak lah ibu nanti .......

That's what friends are for ......

A friend shared this poetry with me .. I do not know who the actual writer is but it is a lovely poem :

If one day you feel like crying
call me
I don't promise that I will make you laugh,
but I can cry with you

If one day you want to run away
don't be afraid to call me
I don't promise to ask you to stay,
but I can run with you

If one day you don't want to listen to anybody
call me
I promise to be very quiet

BUT if one day you call
and there is no answer....
come fast to see me ......
perhaps I need you ....................

Blog-hopping

Yup..I like to blog-hop, not just to fill the time but also to broaden my knowledge ..... there are some interesting issues being mentioned out there.
Also .... there are real life journals so I get first hand news from some places I may never ever visit.
However, recently my habit brought me to blogs I don't think I'll ever revisit:

i. I was depressed ... & reading the entry made me more depressed.
Nasib baik ingat ngan pesanan Ustazah ..." kalau sedang sedih jangan baca atau tengok kisah sedih kecuali yang boleh menyedarkan kita bahawa ada orang yang lebih malang daripada kita ....... "
Ya.... maaf ya .... saya memang kurang gemar puisi gelap, bicara gelap, cinta gelap , duduk dalam gelap.....Hey! teringat kat Pontianak HSM.... !!!

ii. I was shocked at one blog for the foul language used .... I mean this one is written by a teenager like "Say what .... do you have to write that ... use that language etc...etc"
Freedom of speech ...... but bear the responsibility from its consequences please !!!
Just like that blogger who declared " I am a gay boy..."
Yup..no one can see your face & you only use a nickname but ALLAH is watching ....

I'm not a writer by profession.. I write just for the fun of it ....... I use the blog to unload
but I am always aware of my responsibility & that ALLAH is watching me.
My sense of humor ...... my boring jokes ........ they are only meant to make things cheerful
I hate feeling depress & I hate watching people depress ...... & I'd hate it if I make people depress just watching me being depress.
Please ...... share a joke, no matter how boring you think it is, just share it & make someone smile again.
Exactly why I love visiting blogs written with a sense of humor .....

Maaf ....... memang saya yang salah

Maaf,
memang saya bersalah
gagal menjadi anak yang pintar
kecewakan emak dan abah .........
gagal menjadi kakak yang bijak,
tiada teladan buat adik ............
gagal menjadi isteri yang cerdik,
tidak dibanggakan suami ............

Maaf..........
memang saya yang salah .....
kerna itu saya berdoa
minta TUHAN kabulkan .....
Sungguh saya tidak layak di sini ............
saya terima ............. hukumlah
memang saya bersalah

Lost ???

Have I gone astray, lost ???
Have I gone 'blind' though I see ???
or 'deaf' though I hear ???
I have faith in ALLAH swt
and Muhammad, peace be upon him
heaven and hell ..........
I think of death, Day of Revelation,
and yes .... my faith is deep
So why then am I lost ???
why does my mind wander .....
am I wishing for something I shouldn't ???
I know ALLAH swt can hear me
the 'silent' prayers in my heart
the ones that I say but no one hears
Lost.....am I lost ???
ALLAH swt guide me .... please ...........

I Give Up !!!

I said : I GIVE UP !!!
Yup ... just like that SO7 Song "Berhenti Berharap"
I GIVE UP !!!

And then someone reminded me

"Allah answers prayers in three ways: He says yes and gives you what you want, He says no and gives you something better or He says wait and gives you the best in His own time."

Ok......... but its so...........so hard
Waa..........
Ok....SHUT UP !!!
SMILE ..... Smile To The World No Matter What !!!

OK........I'm smiling ............ See me smile ...............

Rindu II

Rindu
tersangat rindu
setiap saat aku mengingati
rinduku tidak terperi
rindu, terpaksa ku bendung
tersembunyi dalam sanubari

Rindu
mendengar suaranya
bersama bergurau senda,ketawa
rindu
melihat seri wajah,tersenyum
cahaya di mata,bahagia

Rindu
aku teramat rindu
mengalir airmata kerna terlalu rindu
tidak sabar melalui detik waktu
sehingga saat kembali bertemu

Mine

Mine

Musings

I ) Aisyah
************
Aisyah is having a hard time trying to sleep with her sisters.
Two nites ago it was OK...perhaps because she was too tired so she practically dozed off the minute she hit the bed
But last nite .... Hemm.....first she said she had to kiss me goodnite
then I caught her peeping thru the curtains ....
the third time, I asked, " Aisyah tak boleh tido ye ???"
That did it ....... she started to cry ....."Aisyah nak ibu ......"
"Ok...come here ..let me hug you ...."
I held her until she fell asleep.

HeHe.....truthfully, I missed having her in my bed........
but my baby is a little girl now .............Sob,sob....Sniff, sniff.............Waa......
Ibu wants to cry too........

II) Zahra
*********
Ok..I know I'm not suppose to do this........but Ibu got itchy fingers.....HeHe
Sshh...don't tell her about it ......

I got this from Zahra's diary :
Last nite Hajar step on a taik
everyone laughed at her
I felt very troubled because she look like she wanted to cry.
But I laugh again

My thots : Gee...she's got a kind and sensitive heart...
and Gee........she can write (despite some grammar errors)

And then...HaHaha.....couldn't help myself .....
"Last nite Hajar step on a taik" HeHeHe..........
Ok....taik = tahi = shit=dunk= whateverelse u want to call it
Hahaha....Hajar step on a taik ??? ..nice sentence..so the very the manglish
Am I going to be criticised for spoiling the language ???

III) Ibu
********
Attended a wedding......expected it to be simple.....
but...HeyHey......what on earth is this ??
In those days (& I'm sure these days too, but elsewhere) .... when the bride & groom are up on the dais, they shud be sitting prim & proper like Raja & Permaisuri ....
but this one.....
Hello Brother..its your wedding, you're the groom & you're on yr handphone ???
And guess what song they were playing ???
HeHeHe...... Madu Tiga
HaHaHa.......tak sensitip langsung.......
Guess the bride shud be prepared .............. three more rivals coming yr way girl !!!
Duh ???

Hemm......hubby's birthday is coming.........

"Ku cari di mana kau letak hatimu
kerna bersamaku ada jawapannya ..........."

Umpama Berlian atau Pasir ???

Adakah aku umpama berlian
gemerlapan
berseri menyinari
menjadi teman yang dihargai

Atau adakah aku umpama pasir
yang tiada kilauan
hadir, tidak hadir sama sahaja ................
kehilanganku tiada terasa
dispensable kata mereka ...

My Private Garden

Its a beautiful place, a garden full of flowers,
daisies, daffodils, roses , all the flowers on earth
this garden is on a hill or perhaps I should say, a cliff
you can see the sea below from here
and there's a tree too.....
a nice shady big tree.........

This is where I like to go whenever I want to be alone ........
this is my refuge, my private garden.....
Sorry .. No entry .........
there's no way you can enter anyway....
coz it only exists in my mind .........
and in my dreams ..............

Ketahuilah Oleh Mu

Ketahuilah Oleh Mu .........
Jika kamu merasa lelah dan tak berdaya dari usaha yang seperti sia-sia..
Allah SWT tahu betapa keras engkau sudah berusaha.

Ketika kamu sudah menangis sekian lama dan hatimu masih terasa pedih...
Allah SWT sudah menghitung airmatamu.

Jika kamu fikir bahwa hidupmu sedang menunggu sesuatu dan waktu serasa berlalu begitu saja...
Allah SWT sedang menunggu bersama denganmu.

Ketika kamu merasa sendirian dan teman-temanmu terlalu sibuk untuk menelefon...
Allah SWT selalu berada di sampingmu.

Ketika kamu fikir bahwa kamu telah cuba segalanya dan tidak tahu hendak berbuat apa lagi... Allah SWT punya jawapannya.

Ketika segala sesuatu menjadi tidak masuk akal dan kamu merasa tertekan...
Allah SWT dapat menenangkanmu.

Jika tiba-tiba kamu dapat melihat jejak-jejak harapan...
Allah SWT sedang berbisik kepadamu.

Ketika segala sesuatu berjalan lancar dan kamu merasa ingin mengucap syukur...
Allah SWT telah memberkatimu.

Ketika sesuatu yang indah terjadi dan kamu dipenuhi ketakjuban ...
Allah SWT telah tersenyum padamu.

Ketika kamu memiliki tujuan untuk dipenuhi dan mimpi untuk dikecapi ...
Allah SWT sudah membuka matamu dan memanggilmu dengan namamu.

Ingat bahwa di manapun kamu berada atau ke manapun kamu mengadap...
Allah SWT TAHU .......

Dari Abdullah bin 'Amr r.a., Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda, "Sampaikanlah pesanku biarpun satu ayat... "