Lost ???

Have I gone astray, lost ???
Have I gone 'blind' though I see ???
or 'deaf' though I hear ???
I have faith in ALLAH swt
and Muhammad, peace be upon him
heaven and hell ..........
I think of death, Day of Revelation,
and yes .... my faith is deep
So why then am I lost ???
why does my mind wander .....
am I wishing for something I shouldn't ???
I know ALLAH swt can hear me
the 'silent' prayers in my heart
the ones that I say but no one hears
Lost.....am I lost ???
ALLAH swt guide me .... please ...........