Sedalam Mana Cinta Mu

2008 - Without War, Pain Or Hurt .. Please ...

If only we can live in peace without pain & hurt ... AND justice for all

Jika dunia aku yang punya akan ku dirikan
sebuah syurga malam tanpa siang
utkku bermimpi

**Sepanjang masa tanpa kecewa
berteman kan bintang yg sempurna
bagaikan puteri bisa khayalan
yg hidupnya suci dan sempurna

##Tapi sayang hanyalah impian
bulan tak bisa tumbuh di taman
dan bila mentari datang
pulanglah segala kenyataan

Jika dunia aku yg punya akan ku hiaskan
sepasang sayap putih dan berseri
utk ku kemudi

Terlalu Cinta

Tuhan maafkan diri ini
yang tak pernah bisa menjauh dari angan tentangnya
namun apalah daya ini
bila ternyata sesungguhnya aku terlalu cinta dia .......

mengapa semua ini terjadi kepadaku

The World As I See It

Your view of the world
and what you see and the life that you see,
is totally the opposite of what it appears to be.
It's not in the real world that we see all the time,
but it's quietly happening in the back of your mind

An opportunity is growing ...to understanding yourself,
and you can't even read it from the books on the shelf.
Light enters darkness, when you go that next step.
here's something unique you must learn to accept

The world as you see it ...that great illusion,
is totally the opposite, and you must reach this conclusion.
You only go outward to get further in,
you only get further
when you see life from within

Part of a poem by Teresa from XCite Group

Mine :-
The World as I see it is full of pain and hurt
full of pretentious people and betrayal
My life experiences have made me bitter
I no longer trust
or believe what people say
because they either say one thing but do the opposite
or they simply lie through their teeth
then apologise when they don't even mean it !!!

BUT there is one thing I can't help doing .... I BOTHER
even when my frens don't bother or can't be bothered about me .. I couldn't help but bother about them ..
I wonder if they're Ok , are they doing fine, sihat walafiat ???, sakit ???
are they happy etc...etc.....
Sorry my frens .... and I mean it when I say I'm sorry .......
I'm REALLY SORRY for being ONE BIG BUG !!!

Pedih

Beraya di Pekan

Pertama kali beraya di Pekan.
Pergi solat sunat di masjid .... terlewat gara-gara Minah "Power Puff" girls tu
By the time sampai masjid .... ruang solat dah penuh
So I prayed," Allahumma yasir ..."
"Ya Allah, berilah kemudahan .... "
Alhamdulillah ...tiba-tiba je ternampak satu ruang
Saya terus masuk dan solat sunat tahiyatulmasjid
Selesai saya solat, kakak sebelah saya tegur, "basah ..."
Saya jawab," tak pe lah asal boleh solat ..."
Memang karpet tempat saya solat tu lembap gara-gara atap masjid bocor dalam
musim tengkujuh ni.
Tapi saya tak kisah sebab bila dah alas dgn sejadah, tempat sujud saya tetap selesa.
Personally, I feel there are things we can be particular about, but there are things
(and times) we cannot be too particular/cerewet.
Inikan musim banjir ..... dapat solat kat masjid pun dah kira satu rahmat.
Semalam saya berdoa ... tentang 2 perkara :-
i) semoga Allah memberi hidayah kepada anak-anak saya agar mereka menjadi anak-anak
yg soleh dan solehah
ii) only for God & me to know & nobody else to find out .....
Semoga Allah memakbulkan doa saya.

Flood in Pekan 2

At last they dropped the food supplies today .... "Kaboosh !!!"
Kan Mak Tiri dah cakap guna helikopter hantar bekalan .... kalau dengar cakap Mak Tiri
tak la huru hara ..... ni orang dah kecoh baru nak guna heli ... "Kaboosh !!!"
Wei...wei ..wei ... jangan tersilap campak udah le ye
Kang bocor lak atap rumah Mak Tiri ...
Udah le hari tu bergegar segala kaca dalam rumah, bagai nak pecah tingkap & pintu.

I may be celebrating my Raya here in Pekan.
All roads out of Pekan are still inaccessible to vehicles.
Currently Jalan ke Rompin only accessible by lorries.
We're hoping the road will be accessible to all vehicles by tomorrow.
Its our only way out & back to KL. But if things remain the same, then confirm la
Raya kali ni kat Pekan saje .....

Unfortunately, there won't be much celebrating coz we have to ration our food.
Also, we have to save on gas.
I'm cooking on a portable gas cooker, the one you use when you go camping, coz we're out of gas. And I'm counting the gas canisters, hoping it will last until end of the month coz mengikut ramalan keadaan ini akan berterusan sehingga hujung bulan.
Yesterday lori tangki minyak sampai & there was a very long queue
for petrol. Itu tak termasuk yg dtg beli petrol dgn containers sebab kereta
memang dah tak de minyak.

Tapikan .... I have not been in a place where people can be dire stricken but
they are still.. hehehe.. other than here in Pekan. Eg. :-
"Mak cik, rumah naik air ke ??"
"Sampai pintu dah ..." Hehehe....
( Rumah kampung kat sini semuanya bertangga so kalau dah sampai pintu maknanya tangga dah tenggelam)
"Mak cik, tak pindah ke ??"
"Tak pe ... boleh lagi ni .." hehehe
"tak bahaya ??"
"Dok eh ..." hehehe
"bekalan makanan cukup??"
"boleh la tu .... kite jimat jimat le ...." hehehe
Dia pakat suka sokmo ......
May God bless them for their humbleness & their strong spirit.
I can definitely learn from them. :-
"Na, kenapa pipi tu lebam ??"
"tak de apa .... terlanggar tembok ..." hehehe

I understand why they don't want to go to Pusat Banjir. Its not exactly a comfortable place to stay. Apalagi kat situ tak de privacy.
Of course where the situation is dangerous, they have to go there whether they want to or not. Only where the situation is NOT dangerous, barulah they are given the choice.
Lagipun Pusat Banijir pun kekurangan bekalan.
Semalam baru dapat buat penghantaran bekalan melalui udara.
For now keadaan stabil ..
but we are bracing for the next "hit" bila air pasang besar bermula malam Jumaat nanti.

Salam Idul Adha to all ....................

Flood in Pekan

Alhamdulillah .... we can hear the helicopter flying over today.
I thot, "Good, we're going to get our supplies."
And then .... "Ta Boom !!!"
Huh ??? They're attacking us ???
"nak pecahkan pasir"
Oh .....
It seems the sand deposited at the estuary is blocking the flow of water fr Sg Pahang into the sea. Its creating a dam effect that is worsening the flood.
So to get rid of the block, they decided to "Ta boom !!!" the sand
Err ... berkesan ke ??
Hemm ... Allahualam
All I know is the water is still rising .....

AND I have to resort to cooking with my portable gas cooker coz gas utk dapur masak dah habis. ( No more gas supplies at the stores)
Macam camping lak .....
Ehh .. Bang, amacam kalau kita pasang khemah ???

Ikhlas Tapi Jauh

I Forgot

In the midst of the excitement
I forgot .... I'm a nobody
in the midst of the celebration and the joy
I forgot ... I'm not a part of it
in the midst of all the emotions
I forgot ... I don't matter

I'm sorry I forgot

Antara langit dan bumi

Antara langit dan bumi
antara harapan dan angan-angan
antara cita-cita dan keupayaan diri
antara impian dan kenyataan

Puncak itu terlalu tinggi untuk ku daki
lautan itu terlalu luas untuk aku seberangi
aku tidak mampu melakukannya
aku tidak berdaya

Andai kamu berjaya menggapai bintang
merentasi benua dan tujuh lautan
janganlah lupakan aku
sesekali,
jenguklah aku di lembah ini

Tomorrow You Didn't

It's a forgone conclusion, your love's an illusion
and the picture is starting to fade
boy let's be honest, when it comes to your promise
it's just a lot of empty words you say
and the future's only gonna be more of the same
you've only got yourself to blame

[Chorus]
Tomorrow you didn't, yesterday you won't
'cause I know everything you say you gonna do you don't
that's a given, it doesn't matter anyway
hey, I know what love wasn't, I know what love isn't
so when you say you're gonna change you gotta be kidding
tomorrow you didn't,
hey hey, I'm outta here today

I used to believe in, all your romantic dreaming
but it really ain't that cute anymore
'cause my time's too precious
so I wish you the best with
whatever it is you're looking for
baby this is all for your own good,
I'm leaving 'cause I know you never would

[Chorus]

I don't need a crystal ball to see it all my dear,
it doesn't matter what you say,
it always turns out the same way
your predictions are fiction
and it's tragically clear

[Chorus]

(dadada, yea)

Falling into History

Don't matter what people say
I never did believe them
I know, I know they know everything
I'll be alright by myself
and no one's gonna tell me, I
be fine confine by love
now our days seem strange
I guess my heart was bound to change

I fell out,
out of you & me
you're fading from view,
and you're falling into history

I never thot that I'd say
that I don't really miss you
I lived I breathe your breath through me
time has a way passing by
until i don't remember why
I have to hurt for you
those pain have gone somewhere
and I'm finally better there

Alien from Venus

I am an alien from Venus
you thought I would speak a thousand words per second ... no, I don't
nag you all day and night .... no, I won't
scream the house down when I'm mad
wail my hearts out when I'm sad ........
and the whole world would know
No .. not me

I am an alien from Venus
I speak a language you don't understand
you won't tell the difference between bat and but
I'd smile to the world
and cry in my heart
so no one would know ..........

Obat hati

Dalam usahaku mencari ketenangan dan memulih hati sendiri .....

Dunia Semakin Rapuh

7 .12.7 = nice number right ??
I thot so ...
I'm hoping for something good to happen today ....
May Allah grant my wishes ......

The rainy season has started just as the rain in my heart has stopped.
I am not about to let my heart drown in the tears I cry inside me .... nope ... not me !!!
As the meteorologist had mentioned, the wind is blowing at high speed,
it almost sound like the devil howling from the trees.
Prediction here : Pekan banjir tahun ni ....
But then .... probably not, coz it's low tide. Anyway, we'll see.
Actually, I am more disturbed that there were earthquakes in Bukit Tinggi & Janda Baik
The geologist should look into that & not let it slide.
I hope they are because I have a feeling the next one will be worse.
What is going on , Ya Allah ???
Apakah dunia ini semakin rapuh ???

I know and believe whatever is happening & will be happening
adalah ketentuan Allah
Mudah-mudahan aku mampu menerimanya dengan redha
Maafkan aku, Ya Allah

Ku Mohon - Shiela Majid

Aku Mohon

Aku mohon padaMu Tuhan
andai umurku kau panjangkan
berilah aku kekuatan dan kecekalan
menghadapi segala dugaan dan rintangan

Aku mohon padaMu Tuhan
andai engkau izinkan aku melihat
anak-anak membesar dalam kebahagiaan
berjaya dalam hidup, dunia dan akhirat

Aku mohon padaMu Tuhan
andai ikatan terbina dalam keberkatan
izinkan ia berkekalan
sekalipun yang tinggal cuma ehsan

Aku mohon padaMu Tuhan
andai ukhuwah terjalin dengan restuMu
izinkan persahabatan ini berterusan
sekalipun tiada lagi sapaan darinya buatku ........

Aku mohon padaMu Tuhan
lindungi dan cintailah mereka selalu
orang-orang yang amat ku hargai
famili dan sahabat-sahabatku itu ............
" jangan biarkan mereka, Ya Allah ......"

My Way

And now, the end is near,
And so I face the final curtain.
My friends, I'll say it clear;
I'll state my case of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life that's full -
I've travelled each and every highway.
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets? I've had a few,
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course -
Each careful step along the byway,
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew,
When I bit off more than I could chew,
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried,
I've had my fill - my share of losing.
But now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that,
And may I say, not in a shy way -
Oh no. Oh no, not me.
I did it my way.

For what is a man? What has he got?
If not himself - Then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way.

Yes, it was my way.

Tidak Seindah Wajah

Mengapa perlu berpura-pura ??
When I say something, I meant what I said .....
I assume you would do the same. How stupid of me !!!
Why ?? why lie to me ??? why pretend ???
why say things you don't mean ??? :-(

Love of The Common People

I am a common woman .... I've got nothing in this world to look forward to ...
EXCEPT to see my children succeed .... not just academically
but also as a mukmin