Ku dipinggirkan

Bukan kecewa dipinggirkan, aku kecewa tiada kejujuran
bukan bersedih disakiti, teramat pedih diri dikhianati

Sebelum kasih menjadi benci
aku memilih berpisah di sini .......

Hilang kekasih mungkin berganti
yang ku harapkan teman sejati ....
Sebelum kasih menjadi benci
aku memilih berpisah di sini .......

May Allah bless everyone & grant you the best ...... Amin

Drown

Someone said "Every tears that you cry inside
will drown your heart "

Hemm .... so let it drown !!!
Who cares ???

I cared & give without expecting anything in return
BUT why am I always the one to care & give ......
IF people are not bothered about how I feel, perhaps I shouldn't be bothered
about how they feel anymore ......

No Matter What

1. Sekurang-kurangnya ada 5 orang dalam dunia ini menyayangi anda dan
sanggup mati kerana anda.
Hemm.... lets see , my parents & hubby(I think), that makes 3 ... who's the other 2 ???

2. Sekurang-kurangnya ada 15 orang dalam dunia ini menyayangi anda dalam
beberapa cara.
My parents & sisters = 5, hubby & children add 6 more, who's the other 4 ???

3. Sebab utama seseorang membenci anda adalah kerana dia ingin menjadi
seperti anda.
Err .... don't be stupid, can or not ???

4. Senyuman daripada anda boleh membawa kebahagiaan kepada
seseorang,walaupun dia tidak menyukai anda.
Ha ..Ha .. ha .... oops ... nasib baik tak jatuh dari kerusi !!!

5. Setiap malam ada seseorang mengingati anda sebelum dia tidur.
Hush now .... why want to mention that !!!

6. Anda amat bermakna dalam hidup seseorang.
May be ???

7. Kalau bukan kerana anda, seseorang itu tidak akan hidup bahagia.
I don't think so !!!

8. Anda seorang yang istimewa dan unik.
Am not !!!

9. Seseorang yang anda tidak ketahui menyayangi anda.
Ayo .... I'm NO dreamer

10. Apabila anda membuat kesilapan yang sangat besar, ada hikmah
sebaliknya.
True !!!

11. Sekiranya anda merasakan anda dipinggirkan, fikirlah semula; mungkin
anda yang meminggirkan mereka.
Ya, I guess !!!

12. Apabila anda terfikir anda tidak mempunyai peluang untuk mendapatkan
sesuatu yang anda ingini, mungkin anda tidak akan memperolehinya,
tetapi sekiranya anda percaya pada diri sendiri lambat-laun anda akan memperolehinya.
I suppose !!!

13. Kenangilah segala pujian yang anda terima. Lupakan segala maki hamun,
caci & cela.
I count my blessings !!!

14. Jangan takut untuk meluahkan perasaan anda; anda akan merasa senang
bila seseorang mengetahuinya.
Oh .. really ??? Kena balun kang cam mano ???

15. Sekiranya anda mempunyai sahabat baik, ambillah masa untuk
memberitahunya yang dia adalah yang terbaik. Hanya seminit
diperlukan untuk mendapat sahabat baik, sejam untuk menghargainya, sehari
untuk menyayanginya, tapi sepanjang hidup untuk melupakannya.
OK .. FINE !!! I won't forget him ... err ... who are we talking
about ???
HeHehe ... Ok Guys, (You know who you are) You are The BEST !!!

No matter what they tell you, no matter what they what they do
no matter what they teach you, what you believe is true
I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what i'm not ..........

My choice

I have a choice
to live the life I want to live
to give the way I want to give
to love the way I want to love

This is my choice
I live the way I live
For you ....
I'll give the way I give
I'll love the way I love

For a better ummah ....
I'll sacrifice to keep us as one
I'll break that vicious cycle
and it don't matter
if emptiness is what's within a frozen wall

Biarlah ia tersembunyi dalam hati
hanya Allah sahaja yang mengetahui
kerana bukankah yang ghaib itu hanya DIA yang tahu

Happy Birthday To My Littlest

Today is My Littlest's Birthday
I woke her up with a kiss
"Wake up ... birthday girl ..."
She returned my kiss with a smile & a big hug
I know she loves me .....
Now who in this world would be stupid enuff to give that up !!!
I'll gladly sacrifice myself for her .... my little angel.
Today I sing you this song :-

As you go through life you'll see
there is so much that we don't understand
and the only thing we know is things don't always go
the way we plan
but you'll see everyday
that we'll never turn away
when it seems all your dreams come undone
we will stand by your side
fill with hope & fill with pride
we are more than we are
we are one ......

Aku harus bagaimana ??

Cinta itu berputik
tatkala menyebut namamu buat hatiku bergetar
Cinta itu mekar
bilamana cemburu menyelinap dalam kalbu
pada wanita-wanita di sekelilingmu
Cinta itu subur
ketika semangat ku hilang setiap kamu menghilangkan diri

Aku sepatutnya menghalang cinta itu
sebelum ia berputik
meracuni cinta itu
sebelum ia mekar
membunuh cinta itu
sebelum ia menjadi subur

Malangnya, aku lalai
membiarkan waktu berlalu
sehingga cinta itu semakin teguh
dan kini aku merayu bantuan Tuhan
untuk menghapuskan cinta ini
Ya Allah, aku harus bagaimana lagi ???

Love in My Heart

Part of a poem forwarded by a fren :-
Wonderful people touches us
wherever we may go
their thoughtfulness and loving ways
the kindness they may show

Sometimes I look around
there is bustling everywhere
and when I need a helping hand
someone is always there

Err ... "someone is always there" ..... iya ke ??

There was another one about love that I used to like ...written on a lovely poster that was hung on a wall near the staircase leading to my classroom : Love in your heart isn't put there to stay
Love isn't love til you give it away ......
Anyway .... I'm too old for all that now ......
Love that was in my heart came & went
And now .... could I be falling in love again ???
Even if I am ... I'll never build my happiness on someone elses tears
Lebih baik mati daripada melukakan hati orang !!!

Come Take My Hand

Come take my hand, I'll keep you company through your journey
I'll support you through your hardships
give you the courage that you need

Come take my hand, I'll stay with you through your ups and down
I'll cheer you on as you stumble
and be happy when you succeed

While you're triumphant
I'll gladly watch you celebrate
and silently slip out of your way .......

Sahabat Yang Paling Ku Ingat

Sahabat Yang Paling Ku Ingat

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Sahabat yang paling ku ingat

sentiasa dalam doaku

pada setiap waktu

di akhir solat

Sahabat yang paling ku ingat

selalu ku harap kebahagiaanmu

walau kamu jauh

dan melupakan aku

Sahabat yang palingku ingat

ku mohon semoga dilindungi

dan dicintaiNYA

walau di mana kamu berada ......

End of Syawal

And so Syawal comes to an end, just like Ramadhan ended.
This year both Syawal and Ramadhan kurang meriah bagi saya.
The end of Syawal only brings sadness .... I feel like there is something unfulfilled.
I know Allah has his reasons why He allows those things to happen .... and I know I shouldn't ask,"sampai bila mesti begini, Ya Allah??".... the important thing for me is to be strong ....
BUT I find that I can face it all when I "lighten the atmosphere with humor" ...
AND when I look at those pictures of beautiful sceneries ( Thank you, Dzan) or look at the night sky (Thanks, Ninuk), I feel very peaceful ....
I am very grateful, I still have frens who I have never even met
who actually help me thru my heartaches without them realising it.
May Allah reward you for that.
p/s Ninuk, hope you received my reply to the Raya greetings you sent me via sms fr KT
Luigi, maaf ya, tidak sempat membalas sms yg kamu kirim dari Jakarta but did you receive the card I sent you ???

Is This Really Me ???

Me ??? :-

Nobody special ... just another person sharing a space on this earth

My first thought when I wake up:-

Dah masuk waktu Subuh ke belum ???

My most over-used phrase:- (over-used ?? more like wrongly-used. I have to be more careful to say it at the correct time & in the correct way.)

Ya Allah .....

I'm most afraid of:-

Losing my frens and my children

My favorite memory:-

Camping di Gunung Pulai

The perfect pizza:-

Err ....when was the last time I eat pizza ???

I believe I can:-

Pick Up The Pieces & Start Over ......

Tests Taken :-
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The Relationship IQ Test

Her score: Communicating - I'm suppose to be good at communicating with people ie. I know when to talk & when to shut up !!!

The Social Networking Test

Her score: Secret Keeper - I CAN keep a secret !!!
HeHeHe ... everyone close to me know that la !!!

The Brainteaser Test

Her score: 24

The Ultimate Personality Test

Her score: Chosen One - sounds like some scary Goddess !!!

What's Your Fame and Fortune?

Her score: Political World - Ha ha ha ... OK, I get people's attention when I speak politics !!!

The Happiness Test

Her score: Gratitude - I guess being grateful makes me happy.

Are You Evil?

Her score: Heaven Sent - so I'm NOT evil !!!

What's Your Lucky Number?
Her score: Seven - So ???

What's Your Sense of Humor?

Her score: Satire - I don't really know what that means.
All I know is my humor keeps me sane !!!

Can You Predict the Future?

Her score: Definitely Pragmatic - Ya ... be practical !!! Don't give me the theories & hypothesis
I want to see what works & the actions

What's Behind Your Emotions?

Her score: Honesty - I've been honest about my feelings & I'll continue to be honest
Where I can't speak the truth, I'll just keep my feelings to myself. Plus, my fren also said ( and I agree with him) sometimes, somethings are better left unsaid !!!

What Renews Your Spirit?

Her score: Pampering Yourself

How Do You Stay on the Bright Side?

Her score: Youthful Curiosity - hehehe ... I won't forget my roller-coaster ride !!!

The Multiple Intelligences Test

Her score: Visual/Spatial Intelligence

What Drives You?

Her score: Stability

What Moves You?

Her score: Major Moments

What's Your Vibe?

Her score: Tickled Pink

What Do Your Eyes Reveal?

Her score: Naturally Stunning - err ... iya ke ???

What's Your True Talent?

Her score: Abstract Reasoning

The Color Test

Her score: Cheerful - this one turns out the same as

The Relationship Color Test Her score: Yellow

The Influence of Birth Order

Her score: Middle child because of your even-tempered nature

What's Your Beauty Aura?

Her score: Elegant - err ... another iya ke ???

The ESP Test

Her score: Clairvoyance

The Emotional IQ Test

Her score: Empathy

The Just Between Friends Test

Her score: Supportive Sidekick

The Confidence Test

Her score: High

What Makes You Amazing?

Her score: Great Attitude

Which Sense Is Strongest in You?

Her score: Right and Wrong

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Her score: Sympathetic Sidekick

The Classic IQ Test

Her score: Facts Curator - the likes of Bill Gates ??? ha .. aha .. ahaks !!!

Capal vs Sneakers

Capal









Sneakers







S : Wah ... glamour la you Boss bawak bergaya ke sana ke mari

C : Oh .. mestilah ... kita kan nak Beraya
( sikit punya "act" ke member )

S : So .... puas lah round pusing-pusing town ..... what did you see ?

C : Hemm ..... interiors of the car, pavements, lantai & dinding
(maklum le .... keluar masuk kereta , lepas tu kena tinggal atas rak .. )

S : Kalau macam tu best la lagi aku .......
C : Oh really ....... so where have you been ???
S : Mostly outdoors ... beautiful sceneries
C : What did you see ???

S : Well .... I remember the grasses, shrubs, dirt, stones ... rock
( C thinking : eleh .... apa ke bende )

S : Oh .... there was one time I could see the world .....
C : ( huh ??? ) Best la ha .....
S : Ya ..... ( C : jaki )

S : Err .... except I'm afraid of heights ( C : )

Pictures courtesy of a Good Fren for KO WacKO Production
Thank you, my Good Fren

When The Sun Sets

The sun
sets ..



My heart finds peace when the sun sets .......
its the end of the day
when efforts for the world comes to rest
and its time for my soul
to be one, in prostration to THE ONE
the only ONE who knows my heart very well ..........

Me vs The Cat

Me : Hey .... you're trying to cheat ???

Cat : Meow

Me : You cheat you'll lose your turn .....

Cat : Meow, meow

Me : OK, thats it !!! You cheat !!! Move it ......

Cat : Meow, meow, meow

Me : Singing :- Its my turn now & you know that I'm ready
its my turn now ... Well, i'm strong & I'm steady
(thats Keke Palmer's Its My Turn - fr the Disney Movie : Jump)

Cat : Woof ! Woof !

Me : Hey, ....... are you sure you're a cat ???