I Want To Be Somebody

O ALLAH,
I want to be somebody,
no .. not a millionaire
or a glamorous beautiful queen
just a some body who can do more than weep & pray
who can give a helping hand
spreading words of love & unity

O ALLAH
it is frustrating to just listen & see
I want to do more and be a somebody
and if YOU make me one
please shield me from riak, ujub & nifaq
for I want to be somebody only to thee

Confusing Situation

Have you ever been in a confusing situation ???
like you want to go forward but you can't because there is a red light .....
Then you think you shouldn't take the right or left turn but someone said you should ....
In the end you just can't decide ........

This world according to me

This world ... as I see it
fight here .. fight there ... fighting everywhere
some people want to be in power in this whole wide world
people suffering, children crying
... in pain .. in hunger & thirst .... dying
so many rich people wants to be richer
couldn't care less about everyone else
so many poor people just waiting for help
didn't have the motivation to strive for it

And so
knowing that ..
what do I do ???
should I join the bandwagon
too busy I couldn't say Hi
or slam the door on the needy
leaving them wondering why
fight here fight there
fighting everywhere .............
fight among family, among frens, among colleagues, among strangers
live life without a care

But I couldn't live like that ....
that is why I'm reaching for you
unfortunately, you're no where to be found
and I'm left alone wondering
what is it that I did wrong
why did you slam your door on me
shutting me out

No ..I'm not going to be like them
I'm not going to complain
I'll never shut my door on you
I'll always be here,
I'll always let you in
don't worry about how you look
or whether you're rich or poor
it never matters to me ....
cause its you ...
the person in you that I care about
so come right in .... you're always welcome here

Salahkah ??? / I'm Sorry

Salahkah aku
masih menghargai
orang yang telah lama "pergi"
Salahkah aku
masih mengingati
sedangkan aku telah lama dilupai

****************************
Since you're gone
I know I should be going too
especially since I know you'll never come back
I should be on my way
move on ......
never looking back

I'm sorry for all the things I did wrong
for the things I shouldn't have said
I'm sorry if there are things I did & said
that made you feel uneasy or hurt you or make you feel bad
I'm sorry ... I'm really really sorry

I thank you for your time
for all those times you spent
giving me advice & listening to my woes
I thank you for the kind things you did & said
& I wish you all the best

I pray GOD take your pains away
if ever you're in pain
and make your hardships easier
if ever you feel burdened
May ALLAH always protect you
and guide you through & through
may you be happy & well ....
til the end of days
always

Last of The Last

If friendship is your last priority
I must be the last of that last
nevertheless .....
I am stubborn as a donkey
I don't give up on my frens that easily
and layers of skin covers me
til it does not matter what you think of me

All I know is I've got frens that I treasure
frens I will never forget
and I'll always be here to laugh as you succeed
and cry a river when you fall or fail
I'll be here to cheer you on as you falter
and give you support whenever you sway
and all these i'll do from afar
without being in your way

*** afterall my dear frens, I don't really fit in do I ??? ***

tahu diri aka sedar diri aka mengaca diri aka insaf aka sedia maklum
"Saya anak kampung = rakyat melata !!!"

Aku Yang Salah

Ok ... my mistake
I know I'll be punished for this
My story at Bicara kami :- http://bicaradidik.blogspot.com

Akulah yang salah
tersilap meramal suasana
cuaca yang cerah
angin yang sepoi-sepoi bahasa
kelihatannya aman, damai dan tenang
rupanya mengundang malang
bagiku yang lalai, menganiaya diri
Janji !!! .... tidakku ulangi lagi

Ya ALLAH maafkan aku .................

Kamu Bebas

Mulai saat ini
aku bebaskan kamu
dari segala janji yang pernah kamu ucapkan

Kamu bebas ......
terbanglah .....
sejauh mana yang kamu suka
setinggi mana yang kamu terdaya

Bebas ....
pergilah
tiada yang ku harap darimu lagi
Kan ku semai benih selasih yang baru di sini ..........

Bila Kamu Menyapa ......

Membisu seribu bahasa
akal sejuta tanya
rindu membelenggu jiwa lara ...........
sekelipan sahaja berubah

Tiba-tiba sahaja awan berlalu
langit mendung kelihatan cerah
hati yang gusar menjadi ria
bila kamu menyapa ......

Apalagi kalau diiringi dgn gelak tawa dan usikan wajah-wajah nakal itu .......

ASTRO dekoder

Semalam bekalan elektrik di tempat kami terputus. Bila bekalan elektrik pulih
ASTRO dekoder kami tidak "on" seperti biasa.
Dari tengah hari sampai ke malam masih juga begitu.
Suami saya balik dari masjid, tengok dekorder masih gelap dan tidak ber"nyawa"
apalagi ... sudah naik geram la ...
dihempasnya dekorder tu.
Lepas tu dia masuk bilik & bersiap untuk main badminton.
Masa nak keluar pintu rumah, dia terhenti kat depan TV.
"Na ... dah Ok dah Na .... kena hempas barulah OK"

HeHeHe
Wahai Dekorder, tahu kamu takut ye .... nasib baik dia hempas kat atas almari je
kalau dia hempas ke lantai, tak ke hancur lebur ???

So now Mr Dekorder .... you can be my fren

Siapakah yang Menyapa ?

Kamukah yang menyapa?
berbisik lembut ke telinga
mesra ....
buat saya tersenyum

Kalau benar kamu yang menyapa
saya sambut sapaan kamu
biar kita sama-sama ceria
mahabbah .....
berukhuwah kerana ALLAH

** Saat ini saya rindu ... rindu sangat-sangat & hanya ALLAH swt yg mampu mengubatnya**

Semangat yang Hilang

Semangatku hilang
hilang bersama gelap malam
menyelinap di dalam bayang-bayang
entah bila kan pulang ........

Aku lelah
tidak berdaya mencari lagi
biarlah
aku tunggu saja di sini
sampai saat dia kembali
semangatku yang hilang ...........